实习医生格蕾第十九季

Alex: [one on one meeting with the Chief] I went to college on a wrestling scholarship. I played baseball, some basketball. But we'll go with football. Chief: What the hell does football have to do with who cut the LVAD wires? Alex: Let's say you were drafted to a team that wasn’t your first pick. You know, you don't like the players. You hate the way they play the game. You even think the quarterback is full of crap. The quarterback's a pain in the ass you don't owe a damned thing to. But, it's your team. You don't quit. You don't talk to the press. You don't bitch to the coach. You just, you just go out there every Sunday and you make the blocks and you take the hits and you, you play to win. You show up and you suit up and you play, because it's your freaking team. Chief: [one on one meeting with Cristina] I know your type. You're a surgical junkie. Cristina: Yes sir? Chief: I'm just saying, it's not going to be easy for you to be away from the OR that long. Cristina: No sir. Chief: And if you want to get back to the OR, you're going to tell me what I need to know, aren't you? Cristina: You're right, it's not easy for me to be away from the OR. And it's not easy for me to sit in front of you, or any other authority figure, for that matter, and not be able to give you the exact answer that you want to hear. I'm the one with the answers. I've always been the one with the answers. But right now, sir, I don't have any. Chief: Dr. Yang. Cristina: How do you keep your edge sir? Because I've watched you and you've been doing this a long time, and you're clean...you're focused, you are the job, nothing gets to you. And the thing is, sir, I was like that...until I got here, until I actually started doing this job and now everything is--is fuzzy and... Chief: That’s beside the point. Cristina: No, see, sir, this is the point. Because I can't tell you, I can't tell you what happened in that room. And before I could have; no guilt, no loyalties, no problem. Before--before I wouldn't have even been in that room. I wouldn't have gotten involved. I would have never frozen in surgery, and I would have told him what I thought he should do. I had an edge, sir. I had an edge, and I've lost it, and I need it. I need it back. So, if you could just tell me, how you keep yours and how not to be affected, I know I could be a great surgeon. So if you could just give me the answers, I would really appreciate it. Chief: You're excused Dr. Yang. Cristina: But-- Chief: You're excused. Cristina: I'll tell you, I'll tell you who cut the LVAD wires if you'll please-- Chief: No you won't, I don't want to know. Not from you. Yeah, I have the answers, but I can't tell them to you. I'm not going to be responsible for you becoming less human. Izzie: [one on one meeting with the Chief] I'm a pretty girl. Chief: What? Izzie: I'm not being arrogant, it’s just, it’s just kind of a fact. For a long time I made a career from my looks, so I get it, I'm a pretty girl. And not in a "from a certain angle" way, in an obvious way. It’s the blonde thing and the big boobs thing, big boobs are a key to obvious pretty if you know what I'm saying. Chief: Dr. Stevens. Izzie: It’s how men see me. I'm not a smart girl or an interesting girl, I'm a pretty girl. The blonde and the boobs it confuses guys into thinking that I'm someone else. And I'm used to it. And I'm used to them walking away when they realize… But then Denny goes and asks me to marry him. Chief: Is that why you cut the wires? Izzie: He doesn't make me feel like I'm a pretty girl. He makes me feel like… like me. I think he might know me. And so, if I did cut the LVAD wire, and I'm not saying that I did, but if I did, then no, I don't feel guilty. And I know that I should. And I would if it were anybody else. But I can't feel anything but happy. George: [one on one meeting with the Chief] Aren't you gonna say anything or [pause] I'm not gonna break [pause] I'm starting to get a little freaked out, but I'm not gonna break. It’s not because I don't care, because I do care what you think about me, I do. Care. I just can't tell you want you want to hear. Which seems to be a theme in my life right now. Just because you can't say something doesn't mean you don't want to, you can want to very much. You can be with a person and be happy with them and not love them. And you can love somebody and not want to be with them. You don't need to love someone to want them. Now that's frustrating, when what your brain tells you you want and what you actually want don't match up. It’s exhausting. And, well, it’s complicated. But that's life. And life... sucks. Chief: [one on one meeting with Meredith] [as Meredith is staring off] I've known you for a long time. And I know your mother and father. And I know, beyond a shadow of a doubt, that you did not cut those LVAD wires. Meredith, I need you to tell me who did it. Meredith: I've been going over this and over this in my mind trying to piece this together. It was you, you're the reason my parents broke up. And it wasn't just an affair, she really loved you. It wasn't just this cheap thing where she didn’t tell you she was married. It wasn't all a lie. She left her husband for you. But you stayed with your wife, because it was the right thing to do. Maybe safe, but she was the right person for you to be with. Let’s face it, my mother, nothing wrong with being safe, being with the good guy because he’s good and we are talking about forever here. You've never regretted your decision. You've never looked back... Right?

爱情是美妙的危险，声张强势的人总是倾向拒绝爱情的表露和爱意的轻易表达，使自己慢慢沉积得冷血，因为无欲（爱）则刚，害怕盲目的爱会使自己变得软弱，削弱生命的自我完善的价值，阻碍对成功的偏执追求。

强者是绝世而独立的忍者，独享隐忍的残酷，也是举世皆浊而独清的可怜虫，霞披凤冠却无人来爱，《实习医生格蕾》里野心勃勃的女外科医生cristine形容自己的两性关系为 Win or Lose，所以仅仅是向伴侣表达内心感受也要死撑到最后一刻，为了成为心胸科外科医生的翘楚人物而甘愿放弃为人妻去相夫教子的机会，这是强迫症的极端例子 抗拒欲望是件很困难的事情，比如美食对于我，也比如美女对于《实习医生格蕾》里的Mr.steamy(惹火)先生,冒天下之大不韪跟最好朋友的妻子上床,原因是不可自拔地爱上了她,但是同时暗度陈仓，和所在医院数量可观的稍有姿色的护士有染，这是不愿也不能抵抗和放弃身体欲望的极端例子 天生的自卑是不会随着社会地位的提升而消失的，比如对于《实习医生格蕾》里的Izzie，女医生里鹤立鸡群的一个，魔鬼身材，天使脸蛋，又有邻家女孩的热心肠，事实上她出生贫寒，少女时期早孕，成为一个自愿放弃抚养权的单身妈妈，但是通过自身的不断奋斗（美国梦的代表哈），成为西雅图大医院的小医生，心底却暗自菲薄医术不如cristine, 家庭出身不如meredith, 甚至认为前两者在刻意排斥她，无头苍蝇般恋上医院里的人人喊打的贫嘴帅（衰）哥Karev，有妇之夫兼蓝颜知己o’mally, 甚至奄奄一息的心脏病人danniel，她的选择总是让人跌破眼镜，拥有天妒的美貌与智慧，碰到的人却总不对，骨子里的自卑如影随形，挥之不去。

我真真欣赏她的是其不娇柔做作的风格，白手起家，独立奋斗，不被物质同化（比如她把800万dollar支票贴在冰箱上，最后募捐给慈善诊所） 幸福是什么，成功？

金钱？

名望？

比如《实习医生格蕾》里meredith的母亲Ellis，强悍女权，是医学界里举重若轻的世出人物，自私冷酷，却也无形中背离了幸福的根本，叱嚓风云医学界一生却在晚年戏剧性的患上老年痴呆症，沦落到要在养老院孤独终老，如果不是心脏病突发死亡的话。

她对期待Meredith是继承她的衣钵，成为一位“extraordinary”的杰出的女性，当她知道meredite仅仅是优秀，而不是杰出时，失望透顶，大声严斥meredith在浪费生命。

她甚至干预Meredith和俊美的脑外科医生derek的恋情，假想爱情会妨碍基因优秀的女儿成为杰出女性（要是cristine 是她女儿就好了）。

系出名门所背负的心理重压是俺们草根们轻易体会不到的，Meredith 拥有良好的家庭出身，优异的禀赋，甜蜜的爱情，蒸蒸日上的事业，只是无论如何努力都无法满足母亲的“欲壑难填”的期许，战战兢兢的活在母亲生前和死后的阴影下（带着母亲的骨灰去上班），小时候父母婚变，父亲的突然离去也导致她对爱情的信念产生怀疑，所以她的身体不断游离和流浪在一夜情上，直到精神肉体遇到了derek的抚慰，种种现世经历轻易把她推上了放弃生命的决断，幸福对于她不过是梦幻，紧握在手，却从不曾拥有。

作为肥皂剧，剧中人物确实有极端主义和夸张的成分，除了片中血淋淋的真刀实枪的各类复杂外科手术让像我这样的医盲大开眼界，难能可贵的是精彩纷呈的剧集的嬉笑怒骂中对人性的显微见著的入木描画--在喧嚣中寂寥，在盛宴里落寞，欢乐里的哀恸，高潮后的空虚，痛苦后的涅磐，那是人人心底深藏的秘密花园。

我接受剧情必须富有冲突性， 这样才能贴近生活的无常，同时更加威慑观众，但是从第五季开始你就过火了。

Burke因为演员的素质问题离开我不予置否，你妥善的安排了这个离去并合理化了剧情发展。

同样的问题你让george以007的隐喻离开我无话可说，然后是izzie...这些都不是问题，你都办到了，可是从第五季开始，医院的合并，乱七八糟的人物涌入，混乱的思维和剧情，或许这就是你想表达的，我无话可说。

我明白izzie演员的离开或许很急迫，但是你曾经花那么长的时间铺垫了izzie和Derek的感情，那么深刻真挚，你却用以可笑的方式给一切画上了句号，这就是你理解的生活么？

你曾经如此成功的铺设了80多集的剧情却在这个时候慌神了？

没时间还是没精力？

你曾经搞了一集悬疑似的剧情，寻找事故负责人，你是在拍悬疑片还是侦探片么，可问题是，你拍也可以，但是，你毁了它，你把这集毁了，我在里面找不到你一向挖掘的人性和生活点滴，结局就是找出了那个人然后她被开除了，哇塞，好精彩！

你是不是从收视率感觉到了？

第六季有了很多改变，在我几乎开始以为一起又要好转起来的时候，我不知道你是想收拾烂摊子还是如何，你又把一切毁了，你说你舍不得Bailey 舍不得Mer 和 yang ，我理解，他们是这部剧的核心，但是我能不能拜托你至少把剧情发展和情节设置的合理、成熟一些。

第六季的最后两集，你让这个丧妻的男人变成了一个复仇者，没有人性的对外科医生开枪， 你知道问题在哪里么？

1、这么大这么一家著名的医院，在发生持枪时间的时候竟然没有调用监视器观察医院内的情况，然后警察的安排完全没有条理性，美国警察在你眼里、房屋设计师都是傻逼么？

2、在凶手射杀Little grey的时候，警察射杀到了凶手的肩膀 ，他没死我不说话，但是你就这么的跳过的情节，让凶手继续带着伤口游走在了医院里？？？

你觉得观众是傻逼么？

警察这种时候不是应该扑上去或者至少围捕他了么？

你竟然就这么的让他一层楼一层楼的游荡3、凶手是来杀死Derek、 Little grey 和Webber的，在他毫无人性的杀死多个人见到Derek的时候，你倒给他弄出了人性来了，让他犹豫不决的站在了Derek面前，虽然最后还是发出了那么子弹，但是如果按照之前的情绪发展，他应该是一枪枪的射杀了Derek根本不会听他辩解什么，更瞎的是，几分钟之后你让他出现在Derek开刀的OR里面看着yang为Derek做手术，而且他还不开枪！

你到底有没有参考过犯罪心理学？？

有那么多优秀的美剧，刑侦剧，悬疑剧，那么多专业的人员、编剧在哪里，你们究竟讨论过没有？

你把我们观众当成了大白痴，看一场你们上演的荒谬的剧情，为我们曾经喜爱、心疼的决死再一次纠结至死，你这是在愚弄我们的情感。

我真好奇前四季的剧本是谁创造的，你们要串联人员，分配每个人角色和台词，我理解，但是这一次你们弄出了最最荒谬的剧情，好好的生活被你们弄得乱七八糟 ，你们应该感到羞愧！

让我觉得最愚蠢的是我自己，坐在这里为剧情纠结，为这种烂透了的剧情伤神！

Derek拿着离婚协议书犹豫再三的时候，我是欣赏这个男人的。

即使我知道在第四季还是第五季的时候他就会和Meredith结婚。

一起生活了十几年的人，哪个人可以轻易的将她赶出自己的生活。

一起过的十几个生日，圣诞，结婚纪念日，还有一系列的其他。

抹去这些需要一点犹豫和不舍，一点也不过分。

这个决定和他的太太是不是那个曾经和他好朋友睡过的女人无关，舍不得的是时间。

Meredith是个好女孩。

她大声对Derek说：choose me的时候，没有人会说她任性的。

因为她无辜而又美好，甚至很难算一个小三。

Derek最最后面的选择是肯定的，Meredith才是女主角。

只是要一点时间和波折。

Derek坐在椅子上一脸痛苦。

Baily路过说:你知道做这个选择其实一点也不难，but painfulBailey也是个聪明的一塌糊涂的胖女人啊。

GA在实习医生紧张的生活中加入了幽默的元素和人性的分析。

我觉得第二季是到目前最出色的，尤其是火车车祸，炸弹，大结局这几集，都无可挑剔。

如果原本有看了第一季觉得一般的朋友，只要看了这几集肯定无法忘怀。

GA的人物、对白和配乐都很出色，唯一希望就是第三季少一些琼瑶戏，多一些出彩的病例。

希望“越狱”热潮中，GA能被更多人所识货。

GA专题：http://www.meijumi.com/default.asp?cat=16

第一次对黑人开始有感觉。

看到他做手术时带的花头巾，很可爱。

喜欢christina没有表情的脸。

反正看这两个人最有感觉后来开始喜欢Callie和ADDISON。

后来每个人都变成很爱。

从一开始，我就认定Cristina和Meredith是一类人：同样的聪明，同样的优秀，同样在受伤时拒绝抚慰，拒绝关怀，同样的孤独，同样的要求心灵和身体的自由，同样的对真爱抱有希望。

所以，她们成为了朋友，最要好的朋友，虽然Mere和Izze、Geroge住在一起，但对Mere来说，他们只是室友，只有Cristina才是与Mere心灵交通的人。

曾经不理解，为何Cristina在Burk受伤，生命垂危时转身而去，终于在这里找到了答案：由于9岁时目睹父亲因车祸流血致死，她害怕再次面对挚爱之人的逝去，害怕自己在那一瞬间崩溃，害怕那种眼见着亲人在面前，生命一点一滴的消失而无能为力的无助感。

Mere何尝不是如此，眼看着被疾病慢慢夺走理智的母亲，那种无助感也一直伴随着她，Cristina看到了，感觉到了，于是，"Meredith Grey"成了“my person”.面对着威胁着Mere的死亡，她又一次选择了走开，买便宜货，在酒吧里拼命灌酒，妄图这样打发时间，逃避心灵的伤痛。

幸运的是，Cristina身边还有Burk在,有了Burk的激励，她终于选择了面对这一切，而不放弃希望，当她满含热泪，用坚定的声音说try again的时候，这已经不是原来那个Cristina了，而是一个成长了的，可以用理智来面和意志对艰难困苦的Cristina。

The best of this soap opera is voiceover in each episode. It intrigues me to scribble down every sentence of voiceover when watching it. It is food for thought. I like this way to say something about life, love, friend, job, responsibility, loneliness and so on in this series. It make me contemplating what has happened in my life.Attached is what I record, share with "同好":Season1 Episode 1: A hard Day’s nightThe game. They say either a person has what it takes to play, or they don't.There comes a moment when it's more than just a game. And you either take that step forward, or turn around and walk away.E5: “shake your groove thing”Remember when you were a kid and your biggest worry was, like, if you'd get a bike for your birthday, or if you get to eat cookies for breakfast. Being an adult? Totally overrated. I mean, seriously, don't be fooled by all the hot shoes and the great sex and the no parents anywhere telling you to do. Adulthood is responsibility. Responsibility, it really does suck. Really, really sucks. Adults have to be places and do things and earn a living and pay the rent. Kinda makes bikes and cookies look really really good, doesn't it?The scariest part about responsibility: when you screw up and let it slip right through your fingers.Unfortunately, once you get past the age of braces and training bras, responsibility doesn't go away.It can't be avoided. Either someone makes us face it, or we suffer the consequences. And still, adulthood has its perks. E6 “ If tomorrow never comes”A couple hundred years ago, Benjamin Franklin shared with the world the secret of his success. "Never leave that till tomorrow," he said, "which you can do today." This is the man who discovered electricity. You'd think more of us would listen to what he had to say. I don't know why we put things off, but if I had to guess, I'd say it has a lot to do with fear. Fear of failure, fear of pain, fear of rejection. Sometimes, the fear is just of making a decision. Because, what if you're wrong? What if you're making a mistake you can't undo? Whatever it is we're afraid of, one thing holds true. That, by the time the pain of not doing a thing gets worse than the fear of doing it, it can feel like we're carrying around a giant tumor. And you thought I was speaking metaphorically.The early bird catches the worm. A stitch in time saves nine. He who hesitates is lost. We can't pretend we haven't been told. We've all heard the proverbs, heard the philosophers, heard our grandparents warning us about wasted time, heard the damn poets urging us to seize the day. Still, sometime we have to see for ourselves. We have to make our own mistakes. We have to learn our own lessons. We have to sweep today's possibility under tomorrow's rug until we can't anymore, until we finally understand for ourselves what Benjamin Franklin meant. That knowing is better than wondering. That waking is better than sleeping. And that even the biggest failure, even the worst, most intractable mistake beats the hell out of never trying.E07 “ The self destruct button”I mean, if life's so hard already, why do we bring more trouble down on ourselves? What's up with the need to hit the self-destruct button? Maybe we like the pain. Maybe we're wired that way. Because without it, I don't know... ...maybe we just wouldn't feel real. What's that saying? "Why do I keep hitting myself with a hammer?" "Because it feels so good when I stop."E08 “Save me”You know how when you were a kid and you believed in fairy tales? That fantasy of what your life would be. White dress, Prince Charming, Who'd carry you away to a castle on a hill. You'd lie in bed at night and close your eyes, and you had complete and utter faith. Santa Claus, the Tooth Fairy, Prince Charming, they were so close, you could taste them. But eventually, you grow up. One day you open your eyes, and the fairy tale disappears. Most people turn to the things and people they can trust. But the thing is, it's hard to let go of that fairy tale entirely. Cause almost everyone still has that smallest bit of hope, of faith, that one day they'll open their eyes and it will all come true.E09 “who’s zooming who”Secrets can't hide in science. Medicine has a way of exposing the lies. Within the walls of the hospital, the truth is stripped bare. How we keep our secrets outside the hospital...Well, that's a little different. One thing is certain. Whatever it is we're trying to hide, we're never ready for that moment when the truth gets naked. That's the problem with secrets. Like misery, they love company. They pile up and up until they take over everything. Until you don't have room for anything else. Until you're so full of secrets, you feel like you're going to burst.The thing people forget is how good it can feel when you finally set secrets free.Whether good or bad, at least they're out in the open, like it or not. And once your secrets are out in the open, you don't have to hide behind them anymore. The problem with secrets is even when you think you're in control... ...you're not.Season 2E1 “Raindrops keep falling on my head”To be a good surgeon, you have to think like a surgeon. Emotions are messy. Tuck them neatly away and step into a clean, sterile room where the procedure is simple. Cut, suture and close. But sometimes, you're faced with a cut that won't heal. A cut that rips it's stitches wide open.The say practice makes perfect. Theory is, the more you think like a surgeon, the more you become one. The better you get at remaining neutral, clinical. Cut, suture, close. And the harder it becomes to turn it off? to stop thinking like a surgeon. And remember what it means to think like a human being.E2 “Enough is enough (no more tears)”I have an aunt who, whenever she poured anything for you, would say, "Say when." My aunt would say, "Say when," and of course we never did. We don't say "when" because there's something about the possibility of more. More tequila. More love. More anything. More is better.There's something to be said about a glass half full. About knowing when to say when. I think it's a floating line. A barometer of need and desire. It's entirely up to the individual. And depends on what's being poured. Sometimes all we want is a taste. Other times, there's no such thing as enough. The glass is bottomless. And all we want is more.E3 “Make me lose control”Surgeons are control freaks. With a scalpel in your hand, you feel unstoppable. There's no fear, there's no pain. You're 10 feet tall and bullet proof. And then you leave the O.R. And all that perfection. All that beautiful control just falls to crap.No one likes to lose control but as a surgeon there's nothing worse. It's a sign of weakness. Of not being up to the task. And still there are times when it just gets away from you. When the world stops spinning. And you realize that your shiny little scalpel isn't gonna save you. No matter how hard you fight it. You fall. And its scary as hell. Except there's an upside to free falling. It's the chance you give your friends to catch you.E4” deny, deny, deny”The key to surviving a surgical internship is denial. We deny that we're tired, we deny that we're scared, we deny how badly we want to succeed, and most importantly, we deny that we're in denial. We only see what we wanna see and believe what we want to believe. And it works. We lie to ourselves so much that after a while, the lies start to seem like the truth. We deny so much that we can't recognize the truth, right in front of our faces.Sometimes reality has a way of sneaking up and biting us in the ass. And when the damn bursts all you can do is swim. The world of pretend is a cage, not a cocoon. We can only lie to ourselves for so long. We are tired. We are scared. Denying it doesn't change the truth. Sooner or later, we have to put aside our denial ... and face the world head on gun's blazing. Denial. It's not just a river in Egypt. It's a freaking ocean. So how do you keep from drowning in it?E5 “Bring the pain”Pain comes in all forms. The small twinge, a bit of soreness, the random pain. The normal pains we live with every day. Then there's the kind of pain you can't ignore. A level of pain so great that it blocks out everything else. Makes the rest of the world fade away. Until all we can think about is how much we hurt. How we manage our pain is up to us. Pain. We anaesthetize...ride it out, embrace it, ignore it... And for some of us, the best way to manage pain is to just push through it.Pain. You just have to ride it out. Hope it goes away on its own. Hope the wound that caused it heals. There are no solutions. No easy answers. You just breathe deep and wait for it to subside. Most of the time pain can be managed. But sometimes, the pain gets to you when you least expect it. Hit's way below the belt and doesn't let up. Pain. You just have to fight through because the truth is you can't out run it. And life always make more.E6 “Into you like a Train”In general... people can be categorized in one of two ways. Those who love surprises, and those who don't. I don't. I've never met a surgeon that enjoys a surprise, because, as surgeons we like to be in the know. We have to be in the know. Because when we aren't, people die and lawsuits happen. Am I rambling? I think I'm rambling. Ok, so my point actually ... and I do have one. Has nothing to do with surprises or death or lawsuits or even surgeons. My point is this: whoever said what you don't know can't hurt you was a complete and total moron. Because for most people I know, not knowing is the worst feeling in the world.As surgeons, there are so many things we have to know. We have to know we have what it takes. We have to know how to take care of our patients. And how to take care of each other. Eventually we even have to figure out... how to take care of ourselves. As surgeons we have to be in the know. But as human beings, sometimes it's better to stay in the dark. Because in the dark, there maybe fear... ... but there's also hope.E8 “Let it Be”In the 8th grade, my English class had to read Romeo & Juliet. Then for extra credit, Mrs. Snyder made us act out all the parts. Sal Scafarillo was Romeo. As fate would have it, I was Juliet. All the other girls were jealous but I had a slightly different take. I told Mrs. Snyder that Juliet was an idiot. For starters, she falls for the one guy she knows she can't have. Then she blames fate for her own bad decision. Mrs. Snyder explained to me that when fate comes into play, choice sometimes goes out the window. At the ripe old age of 13, I was very clear. That love like life is about making choices. And fate has nothing to do with it. Everyone thinks it's so romantic. Romeo & Juliet. True love. How sad. If Juliet was stupid enough to fall for the enemy, drink a bottle of poison and go to sleep in a mausoleum ... ... she deserved whatever she got.Maybe Romeo & Juliet were fated to be together, but just for a while. And then their time passed. If they could've known that beforehand maybe it would've all been ok. I told Mrs. Snyder that when I was growing up I'd take fate into my own hands. I wouldn't let some guy drag me down. Mrs. Snyder said that I'd be lucky if I ever had that kind of passion with someone. And that if I did, we'd be together forever. Even now I believe for the most part love is about choices. It's about putting down the poison and the dagger and making your own happy ending ... most of the time. And that sometimes despite all your best choices and all your best intentions, fate wins anyway.E09: “Thanks for the memories”Gratitude, appreciation, giving thanks. No matter what words you use, it all means the same thing. Happy. We're supposed to be happy. Grateful for friends, family, happy just to be alive... Whether we like it or not.Maybe we're not supposed to be happy. Maybe gratitude has nothing to do with joy. Maybe being grateful is recognizing what you have for what it is. Appreciate small victories. Admiring the struggle it takes simply to be human. Maybe we're thankful for the familiar things we know. And maybe we're thankful for things we'll never know. At the end of the day, the fact that we have the courage to still be standing ... ... is reason enough to celebrate.E10 “Much too much”When you were a kid, it was Halloween candy. You hid it from your parents and ate it until you got sick. In college it was the heady combo of youth, tequila and well you know... As a surgeon you take as much of the good as you can get... because it doesn't come around nearly as often as it should. Cause good things aren't always what they seem. Too much of anything, even love is not always a good thing.How do you know how much is too much? Too much, too soon. Too much information. Too much fun. Too much love. Too much to ask. And when is it all just too much to bear?E11 “Owner of a lonely heart”Forty years ago, The Beatles asked the world a simple question. They wanted to know where all the lonely people came from. My latest theory is that a great many of the lonely people come from hospitals. More precisely the surgical wings of hospitals. As surgeons we ignore our own needs so we can meet our patients' needs. We ignore our friends and families so we can save other people's friends and families. Which means that at the end of the day all we really have is ourselves. And nothing in this world can make you feel more alone than that.400 years ago another well known English guy had an opinion about being alone. John Donne. He thought we were never alone. Of course it was fancier when he said it. No man is an island entire unto himself. Boil down that island talk and he just meant that all anyone needs is someone to step in. And let us know we're not alone. And who's to say that someone can't have 4 legs. Someone to play with or run around with. Or just hang out.E12 “Grandma got run over by a reindeer”It's an urban myth that suicide rates spike at the holidays. Turns out, they actually go down. Experts think that people are less inclined to off themselves when surrounded by family. Ironically, that same family togetherness is thought to be the reason depression rates actually do spike at the holidays.There's an old proverb that says you can't choose your family. You take what the fates hand you... ...and like them or not, love them or not, understand them or not ... ...you cope. Then there's the school of thought that says the family you're born into is simply a starting point. They feed you and clothe you and take care of you until your ready to go out into the world. ...and find your tribe.E13 “Begin the begin”Fresh starts. Thanks to the calendar, they happen every year. Just set your watch to January. Our reward for surviving the holiday season is a new year. Bringing on the great tradition of New Year's resolutions. Put your past behind you and start over. It's hard to resist the chance at a new beginning. A chance to put the problems of last year to bed.Who gets to determine when the old ends and the new begins? It's not a day on a calendar. Not a birthday, not a new year. It's an event, big or small, something that changes us. Ideally it gives us hope. A new way of living and looking at the world. Letting go of old habits, old memories. What's important is that we never stop believing, we can have a new beginning. But it's also important to remember that amid all the crap are a few things really worth holding on to.E14 “Tell me sweet little lies”As doctors we're trained to skeptical because our patients lie to us all the time. The rule is: every patient is a liar until proven honest. Lying is bad. Or so we're told. Constantly, from birth. Honesty is the best policy. The truth shall set you free. I chop down the cherry tree. Whatever. The fact is, lying is a necessity. We lie to ourselves because the truth, the truth freaking hurts.No matter how hard we try to ignore it or deny it. Eventually the lies fall away. Whether we like it or not. But here's the truth about the truth. It hurts. So we lie.E16: “It’s the end of the world”It's a look patients get in their eyes. There is a scent. The smell of death. Some kind of sixth sense. When the great beyond is headed for you, you feel it coming. What's the one thing you've always dreamed of doing before you die? E17 “As we know it”In hospitals they say you know. You know when you're going to die. Some doctors say it's a look patients get in their eyes. Some say there's a scent. The smell of death. Something. There's just some kind of sixth sense. When the great beyond is heading for you. You feel it coming. Whatever it is. It's creepy. Because if you know. What do you do about? Forget about the fact you're scared out of your mind. If you knew this was your last day on Earth, how would you want to spend it?(现在似乎流行这样的假设，在北美大学，流行”last lecture”)E18 “Yesterday”After careful consideration and many sleepless nights, here's what I've decided. There's no such thing as a grown up. We move on, we move out, we move away from our families and form our own. But the basic insecurities, the basic fears and all those old wounds just grow up with us. And just when we think that life and circumstance have forced us to truly, once and for all become an adult ... We get bigger, we get taller, we get older. But for the most part, we're still a bunch of kids. Running around the playground trying desperately to fit in.We whisper secrets with our best friends in the dark. We look for comfort where we can find it. And we hope. Against all logic. Against all experience. Like children, we never give up hope.E19 “ What have I done to deserve this”Ok so sometimes even the best of us make rash decisions. Bad decisions. Decisions we pretty much know we're gonna regret the moment, the minute, especially the morning after. I mean maybe not regret, regret because at least you know we put ourselves out there. But still ... something inside us decides to do a crazy thing. A thing we know that'll probably turn around and bite us in the ass. Yet, we do it anyway.What I'm saying is ... we reap what we sow. What comes around goes around. It's karma and any way you slice it ... ... karma sucks. Like I was saying ... ... payback's a bitch.One way or another, our karma, will leave us to face ourselves. We can look our karma in the eye or we can wait for it to sneak up on us from behind. One way or another, our karma will always find us. And the truth is as surgeons we have more chances than most to set the balance in our favor. No matter how hard we try, we can't escape our karma. It follows us home. I guess we can't really complain about karma. It's not unfair. It's not unexpected. It just ... evens the score. And even when we're about to do something we know will tempt karma to bite us in the ass ... ... well it goes without saying ... ...we do it anyway.E20 “ Band Aid covers the bullet hole”As doctors patients are always telling us how they would do our jobs. Just stitch me up, slap a band-aid on it and send me home. It's easy to suggest a quick solution when you don't know much about the problem. When you don't understand the underlying cause ... ... or just how deep the wound really is. The first step towards a real cure is to know exactly what the disease is to begin with. But that's not what people want to hear. We're supposed to forget the past that landed us here, ignore the future complications that might arise and go for the quick fix.As doctors, as friends, as human beings we all try to do the best we can. But the world is full of unexpected twists and turns. And just when you've gotten the lay of the land, the ground underneath you, shifts. And knocks you off your feet. If you're lucky, you end up with nothing more than a flesh wound. Something a band-aid will cover. But some wounds are deeper than they first appear and require more than just a quick fix. With some wounds, you have to rip off the band-aid, let them breathe and give them time to heal.E21 “Superstition”My college campus has a magic statue. It's a long-standing tradition for students to rub it's nose for good luck. My freshman roommate really believed in the statue's power... ...and insisted on visiting it to rub it's nose before every exam. Studying might have been a better idea. She flunked out her sophomore year. But the fact is we all have little superstitious things that we do. If it's not believing in magic statues, it's avoiding sidewalk cracks, or always putting out left shoe on first. Knock on wood. Step on a crack, break your mother's back. The last thing we want to do is offend the gods.Superstition lies in the space between what we can control... and what we can't. Find a penny, pick it up, and all day long you'll have good luck. No one wants to pass up a chance for good luck. But does saying it 33 times really help? Is anyone really listening? And if no one's listening, why do we bother doing those strange things at all? We rely on superstitions because we're smart enough to know we don't have all the answers. And that life works in mysterious ways. Don't diss the juju...from wherever it comes.E22 “ The name of the game”A good basketball game can have us all on the edge of our seats. Games are all about the glory, the pain and the play-by-play. And then there are the more solitary games. The games we each play all by ourselves. The social games, the mind games, we use them to pass the time. To make life more interesting. To distract us from what's really going on. There are those of us who love to play games. Any game. And there are those of us who love to play...a little too much.Life is not a spectator sport. Win, lose or draw...the game is in progress...whether we want it to be or not. So go ahead: argue with the refs, change the rules...cheat a little...take a break...and tend to your wounds. But play. Play hard. Play fast. Play loose and free. Play as if there's no tomorrow. Ok, so it's not whether you win or lose...it's how you play the game. Right?E23 “Blues for sister someone”The key to being a successful intern is what we give up. Sleep, friends, a normal life. We sacrifice it all for that one amazing moment. That moment when you can legally call yourself a surgeon. There are days that make the sacrifices seem worthwhile. And then there are the days where everything feels like a sacrifice. And then there are the sacrifices that you can't even figure out why you're making.A wise man once said, "You can have anything in life, if you will sacrifice everything else for it." What he meant is, nothing comes without a price. So before you go into battle, you better decide how much you're willing to lose. Too often, going after what feels good, means letting go of what you know is right. And letting someone in means abandoning the walls you've spent a lifetime building. Of course the toughest sacrifices are the ones we don't see coming. When we don't have time to come up with a strategy, to pick a side or measure the potential loss. When that happens, when the battle chooses us, and not the other way around, that's when the sacrifice can turn out to be more than we can bear.E24 “Damage Case”We all go through life like bulls in a china shop. A chip here, a crack there. Doing damage to ourselves. To other people. The problem is trying to figure out how to control the damage we have done. Or that's been done to us. Sometimes the damage catches us by surprise. Sometimes we think we can fix the damage. And sometimes the damage is something we can't even see.We're all damaged, it seems. Some of us more than others. We carry the damage with us from childhood. Then, as grown-ups, we give as good as we get. Ultimately, we all do damage. And then...we set about the business of fixing...whatever we can.E25 “17 seconds”In life, we are taught that there are seven deadly sins. We all know the big ones: Gluttony, pride, lust. But the sin you don't hear much about is anger. Maybe it's because we think anger's not that dangerous. That we can control it. My point is, maybe we don't give anger enough credit. Maybe it can be a lot more dangerous than we think. After all, when it comes to destructive behavior... ...it did make the top seven.So what makes anger different from the six other deadly sins? It's pretty simple really. You give in to a sin like envy or pride then you only hurt yourself. Try lust or coveting and you'll only hurt yourself, and probably one or two others. But anger...anger is the worst. The mother of all sins. Not only can anger drive you over the edge, when it does, you can take an awful lot of other people with you.E26 “Deterioration of the fight or flight response”Human beings need a lot of things to feel alive. We can't control it.Season 3E01 “Time has come today”In the OR, time loses all meaning. In the midst of sutures and saving lives, the clock ceases to matter. 15 minutes. 15 hours. Inside the OR, the best surgeons make time fly. Outside the OR however, time takes pleasure in kicking our asses. For even the strongest of us, it seems to play tricks. Slowing down, hovering....until it freezes, leaving us stuck in a moment, unable to move in one direction or the other.Time flies Time waits for no man. Time heals all wounds. All any of us wants is more time Time to stand up... time to grow up. Time to let go.E02 “I am a tree”At any moment, the brain has 14 billion neurons firing at a speed of 450 miles per hour. We don't have control over most of them. When we get a chill, goosebumps. When we get excited, adrenaline. The body naturally follows it's impulses, which I think is part of what makes it so hard for us to control ours. Of course, sometimes we have impulses we'd rather not control. That we later wish we had.The body is a slave to its impulses. But the thing that makes us human... Is what we can control. after the storm. After the rush. After the heat of the moment has passed. We can cool off and clean up the messes we've made. We can try to let go of what was. And then again...E03 “Sometimes a fantasy”Surgeons usually fantasize about wild and improbable surgeries. Someone collapses in a restaurant; we splice them open with a butter knife. Replace a valve with a hollowed-out stick of carrot. But every now and then, some other kind of fantasy slips in. Most of our fantasies dissolve when we wake. Banished to the back of our mind. But sometimes we're sure, if we try hard enough, we can live the dream.The fantasy is simple. Pleasure is good. And twice as much pleasure is better. That pain is bad. And no pain is better. But the reality is different. The reality is that pain is there to tell us something. And there's only so much pleasure we can take without getting a stomach ache. And maybe that's OK. Maybe some fantasies are only supposed to live in our dreams.E04 “What I am”At some point during surgical residency, most interns get a sense of who they are as doctors, and the kind of surgeons they're going to become If you ask them they'll tell you. They're going to be General surgeons. Orthopedic surgeons. Neurosurgeons. Distinctions that do more than describe their areas of expertise. They help define who they are. Because Outside the operating room, not only do most surgeons have no clue who they are, they're afraid to find out.E05 “Oh, the guilt”First, do no harm. As doctors we pledge to live by this oath. But harm happens. Then guilt happens, and there's no oath for how to deal with that.First, do no harm. Easier said than done. We can take all the oaths in the world but the fact is... most of us do harm all the time.Sometimes even when we're trying to help, we do more harm than good. And then the guilt rears its ugly head. What you do with that guilt is entirely up to you. We're left with a choice... Either you can let guilt thrown you back into the behavior that got you in trouble in the first place, or learn from the guilt, and do your best to move on.E06 “Let the angels commit”To make it... really make it as a surgeon, it takes major commitment. We have to be willing to pick up that scalpel that may or may not do more damage than good. It's all about being committed. Cause if we're not, we have no business picking up that scalpel in the first place.There are times when even the best of us have trouble with commitment, and we may be surprised at the commitments we're willing to let slip out of our grasp. Commitments are complicated. We may surprise ourselves by the commitments we're willing to make. True commitment, takes effort, and sacrifice. Which is why sometimes, we have to learn the hard way, to choose our commitments very carefully.E07 “Where the boys are”As surgeons we're trained to look for disease. Sometimes, the disease is easily detected. Most of the time, we need to go step by step. First, probing the surface, looking for any sign of trouble. A mole or a lesion, or an unwelcome lump. Most of the time, we can't tell what's wrong with somebody just by looking at them. After all, they can look perfectly fine on the outside, while their insides tell us a whole different story.Not all wounds are superficial. Most wounds run deeper than imagined. You can't see them with the naked eye. And then there are the wounds that take us by surprise. The trick to any wound or disease is to dig down deep and find the real source of the injury. And once you've found it... try like hell to heal that sucker.E08 “staring at the sun”Many people don't know that the human eye has a blind spot in its field of vision. There's a part of the world that we are literally blind to. The problem is, sometimes our blind spots shield us from things that really shouldn't be ignored. Sometimes our blind spots keep our lives bright and shiny.When it comes to our blind spots, maybe our brains aren't compensating. Maybe they're protecting us.E09 “From a whisper to a scream”As doctors, we know everybody's secrets. Their medical histories, sexual histories, confidential information that is as essential to a surgeon as a 10-blade. And every bit as dangerous. We keep secrets. We have to. But not all secrets can be kept.In some ways, betrayal is inevitable. When our bodies betray us, surgery is often the key to recovery. When we betray each other, the path to recovery is less clear. We do whatever it takes to rebuild the trust. And then there are some wounds that are so deep, so profound, that there's no way to repair what was lost. And when that happens, there's nothing left to do but wait.E10 “Don’t stand so close to me”At the end of the day, when it comes down to it, all we really want is to be close to somebody. So this thing where we all keep our distance, and pretend not to care about each other...it's usually a load of bull. So we pick and choose who we want to remain close to. and once we've chosen those people we tend to stick close by. no matter how much we hurt them. The people that are still with you at the end of the day, those are the ones worth keeping.E13 “Great Expectations”No one believes their life will turn out just kind of ok. We all think we're going to be great. And from the day we decide to become surgeons, we are filled with expectation. Expectations of the trails we will blaze, the people we will help, the difference we will make. Great expectations of who we will be, where we will go, and then we get there.We all think we're going to be great. And we feel robbed when our expectations aren't met. But sometimes our expectations sell us short. Sometimes, the expected pales in comparison to the unexpected. You gotta wonder why we cling to our expectations, because the unexpected is just what keeps us steady...standing...still. The expected is just the beginning. The unexpected is what changes our lives.E14 “wishing and hoping”As surgeons we live in a world of worst-case scenarios. We cut ourselves off from hoping for the best because too many times the best doesn't happen. But every now and then something extraordinary occurs ... ...and suddenly best-case scenarios seem possible. And every now and then...something amazing happens. And against our better judgment, we start to have hope.As doctors, we're trained to give our patients just the facts. But what are patients really want to know is. Will the pain ever go away? Will I feel better? Am I cured? What are patients really want to know is... ...is their hope. But inevitably there are times when you find yourself in the worst-case scenario. When the patient's body has betrayed them and all the science we have to offer has failed them. When the worst-case scenario comes true, clinging to hope is all we have left.E15 “ walk on water”Disappearances happen in science, disease can suddenly fade away. Tumors go missing. We open someone up to discover the cancer is gone. It's unexplained, it's rare, bit it happens. We call it misdiagnosis say we never saw it, any explanation but the truth. That life is full of vanishing acts. If something that we didn't know we had disappears, do we miss it?E16 “drowning on dry land”Like I said disappearances happen. Pains go phantom, blood stops running, and people fade away. There's more I have to say. So much more. But I've disappeared.E17 “some kind of miracle”There are medical miracles. Being worshippers at the alters of science we don't like to believe miracles exist, but they do. Things happen...we can't explain them, we can't control them, but they do happen. Miracles do happen in medicine. They happen every day just not always when we need them to happen.At the end of a day like this, a day when so many prayers are answered and so many aren't... We take our miracles where we find them. We reach across the gap and sometimes against all odds, against all logic, we touch.E18 “scars and souvenirs”People have scars in all sorts of unexpected places. Like secret roadmaps of their personal histories... ...diagrams of all their old wounds. Most of our old wounds heal leaving nothing behind but a scar, but some of them don't. Some wounds we carry with us everywhere... ...and though the cuts long gone... ...the pain still lingers.What's worse, new wounds which are so horribly painful... :...or old wounds that should have healed years ago and never did. Maybe our old wounds teach us something... ...they remind us of where we've been and what we've overcome. They teach us lessons about what to avoid in the future. That's what we like to think. But that's not the way it is, is it? Something's we just have to learn over and over and over again.E19 “my favorite mistake”Surgeons always have a plan, where to cut, where to clamp, where to stitch. But even with the best plans, complications can arise, things can arise and suddenly you're caught with your pants down.The thing about plans is...they don't take into account the unexpected. So, when we're thrown a curve ball, whether it's in the OR, or in life. We have to improvise. Of course, some of us are better at it than others. Some of us just have to move on to Plan B and make the best of it. And sometimes... ...what we want... ...is exactly... ...what we need. But sometimes... Sometimes what we need is a new plan.E20 “time after time”A patient's history is as important as their symptoms. It's what helps us decide if heartburn's a heart attack, if a headache's a tumor. Sometimes patients will try to rewrite their own histories. They'll claim they don't smoke or forget to mention certain drugs, which in surgery can be the kiss of death. We can ignore it all we want. But our history, eventually, always comes back to haunt us.Some people believe that without history our lives amount to nothing. At some point we all have to choose. Do we fall back on what we know... Or do we step forward to something new. It's hard not to be haunted by our past. Our history is what shapes us, what guides us. Our history resurfaces time after time after time. So we have to remember sometimes the most important history is the history we're making today.E21 “Desire”As interns we know what we want...to become surgeons. And will do anything to get there... Suffer through killer exams, endure 100-hour weeks, stand for hours on end operating rooms. You name it we'll do it. The tough part though is reconciling this huge thing we want, to be surgeons, with everything else we want.To often, the thing you want most is the one thing you can't have. Desire leaves us heartbroken; it wears us out. Desire can wreck your life. But as tough as wanting something can be...(Addison pauses in front of the hospital)...the people who suffer the most are those who don't know what they want.E22 “The other side of the life”The dream is this: that we'll finally be happy when we reach our goals... ...find the guy, finish our internship. That's the dream; then we get there and if we're human, we immediately start dreaming of something else. Because if this is the dream then we'd like to wake up... ...now please.At some point, maybe we accept that the dream has become a nightmare. We tell ourselves the reality is better. We convince ourselves it's better that we never dream at all. But the strongest of us, the most determined of us, we hold on to the dream. Or we find ourselves faced with a fresh dream we never considered. We awake to find ourselves...Against all odds...Feeling hopeful. And if we're lucky, we realize...In the face of everything, in the face of life...The true dream...Is being able to dream at all.E23 “Testing”A surgeon's education never ends. Every patient, every symptom, every operation...is a test, a chance for us to demonstrate how much we know...and how much more we have to learn.

SEASON ONEEpisode 1: “A Hard Day’s Night” O.A.O.T.S., "Dance"Thirteen Senses, "Into the Fire"Butterfly Boucher, "Life Is Short"Rilo Kiley, "Portions for Foxes"Vaughan Penn, "Ready to Rise"BANG sugar BANG, "Super Cool?Jem, "They"Episode 2: “The First Cut is the Deepest” The Cardigans, "Live and Learn"The Ditty Bops, "Sister Kate"Keane, "Somewhere Only We Know"Get Set Go, "Wait"Tegan and Sara, "You Wouldn't Like Me"Episode 3: “Winning a Battle, Losing the War” Lisa Loeb, "Fools Like Me"Tegan and Sara, "I Won't Be Left"The Ditty Bops, "There's a Girl"The Ditty Bops, "Wishful Thinking"Reindeer Section, "You Are My Joy"Episode 4: “No Man’s Land”Get Set Go, "Break Your Heart"The Eames Era, "Could Be Anything"Rosie Thomas, "Let Myself Fall"Sia, "Sunday"Vaughan Penn, "Truth"Tegan and Sara, "Where Does the Good Go?"Episode 5: “Shake Your Groove Thing” Ivy, "Edge of the Ocean"Interpol, "Evil"Dee, "Money Girl"Buffseeds, "Sparkle Me"Psapp, "Tiger, My Friend"The Ditty Bops, "Wake Up"Episode 6: “If Tomorrow Never Comes” Psapp, "Chapter"Butterfly Boucher, "Never Leave Your Heart Alone"Jem, "Save Me"The Ditty Bops, "Walk or Ride"Episode 7: “The Self-Destruct Button” Tegan and Sara, "Downtown"Wilco, "Hummingbird"Joe Purdy, "Suitcase"ACDC, "The Self-Destruct Button"Jem, "Wish I"Episode 8: “Save Me” Nellie McKay, "David"Masha Qrella, "Feels Like"Tegan and Sara, "Fix You Up"Joe Purdy, "I Love the Rain the Most"78 Saab, "No Illusions"Laura Veirs, "Rapture"Episode 9: “Who’s Zoomin’ Who?” A.M. Sixty, "Big As the Sky"Psapp, "Cosy In the Rocket"Medeski, Martin & Wood, "End of the World Party"Iron & Wine, "Naked As We Came"Maria Taylor, "Song Beneath the Song"Nellie McKay, "The Dog Song"The Radio, "Whatever Gets You Through Today"SEASON TWOEpisode 1: “Raindrops Keep Fallin’ On My Head” Firstcom, "All I Need"Michelle Branch, "Breathe"Esthero & Sean Lennon, "Everyday Is a Holiday (With You)"Ivy, "Feel So Free"Bow Wow Wow, "I Want Candy"Mike Doughty, "Looking At the World from the Bottom of a Well"Kate Earl, "Some one to Love"Blue-Eyed Son, "Step Away From the Cliff"Joe Purdy, "The City"Episode 2: “Enough is Enough (No More Tears)” Goldfrapp, "Beautiful"Joy Zipper, "Go Tell The World"Jem, "Just a Ride"kt tunstall, "Suddenly I See"Brandi Carlile, "What Can I Say"Episode 3: “Make Me Lose Control” Sylvie Lewis, "By Heart"Inara George, "Fools In Love"Elevator Action, "I'm a Bitch"Roisin Murphy, "Ruby Blue"Get Set Go, "Sleep"Maria Taylor, "Song Beneath the Song"Episode 4: “Deny, Deny, Deny” Ben Lee, "Catch My Disease"The Delgados, "I Fought the Angels"Merrick, "Infinity"Rolsin Murphy, "Ramalama"Episode 5: “Bring the Pain” Way Out West, "Don't Forget Me"Mike Doughty, "I Hear the Bells"Tegan and Sara, "Not Tonight"Roisin Murphy, "Prelude to Love In the Making"Blue-Eyed Son, "Step Away from the Cliff"Blue-Eyed Son, "When I Come Home"Cowboy Racer, "Yellow Horse"Episode 6: “Into You Like a Train” The Hereafter, "Back Where I Was"B.C. Camplight, "Blood and Peanut Butter"Umbrellas, "The City Lights"Emiliana Torrini, "Today Has Been Okay"Episode 7: “Something to Talk About” The Faders, "Better Off Dead"Annie, "Chewing Gum"Mark Joseph, "Get Through"kt tunstall, "other side of the world"Rosie Thomas, "Since You've Been Around"Episode 8: “Let it Be” Gabin, "Bang Bang to the Rock n' Roll"Joe Purdy, "Far Away Blues"Nouvelle Vague, "I Melt With You"Anya Marina, "Miss Halfway"The Faders, "No Sleep Tonight"The Chalets, "Sexy Mistake"Episode 9: “Thanks for the Memories” The O.A.O.T.'s, "Dance"Dressy Bessy, "New Song (From Me to You)"Keren Ann, "Not Going Anywhere"Fannypack, "Nu Nu (Yeah Yeah)"Josh Rouse, "Sad Eyes"Emiliana Torrini, "Serenade"Nellie McKay, "The Dog Song"Mark McAdam, "Too Hard"Episode 10: “Much Too Much”Get Set Go, "Crying Shame"James Blunt, "High"Greenskeepers, "Lotion"Roisin Murphy, "Night of the Dancing Flame"Lifehouse, "You and Me"Episode 11: “Owner of a Lonely Heart” Jim Noir, "I Me You"Emiliana Torrini, "Sunny Road"James Blunt, "Tears and Rain"Gemma Hayes, "Two Step"Moonbabies, "War On Sound"Episode 12: “Grandma Got Run Over By a Reindeer” Jet, "Back Door Santa"Maria Taylor, "Christmas After All"Holidays on Ice, "Here Comes Your Ride"Sixpence None The Richer, "It Came Upon a Midnight Clear"The LeeVees, "Latke Clan"Catie Curtis, "Lo, How A Rose E'er Blooming"Lou Rawls, "Santa Claus Is Comin' to Town"Nat King Cole, "The Christmas Song (Merry Christmas to You)"Mascott & Dave Derby, "This Christmastime"Episode 13: “Begin the Begin” Slow Runner, "Break Your Momma's Back"The 88, "Hide Another Mistake"Kraak & Smaak, "One of These Days"Cary Brothers, "Ride"Episode 14: “Tell Me Sweet Little Lies” Saint Etienne, "A Good Thing"Carey Ott, "Am I Just One"Adrienne Pierce, "Fool's Gold"Sam Winch, "I Got Some Moves"Metric, "Monster Hospital"Mike Tarantino, "Wienermobile Girl"Episode 15: “Break On Through” Emilia, "Big Big World"Leeroy Stagger, "Just In Case"Landon Pigg, "Sailed On"Kendall Payne, "Scratch"Rebecca Lynn, "Small World, Big Girl"Kate Earl, "Someone to Love"Aqueduct, "The Suggestion Box"Vassy, "Wanna Fly"Episode 16: “It’s the End of the World…”Big Big World (TNT Big Phat Mix): EmiliaMonotypes, "Dead Streets"Michael Stipe & Chris Martin, "In The Sun"Joseph Arthur, "In the Sun"Ursula 1000, "Kaboom"kt tunstall, "Miniature Disasters"Kate Havnevik, "Unlike Me"Episode 17: “... As We Know It” Greenskeepers, "Back In The Wild"Anna Nalick, "Breathe (2 a.m.)"Foy Vance, "Homebird"Correatown, "I Tell Myself"Ambulance LTD, "Stay Where You Are"Kate Havnevik, "Unlike Me"The Weepies, "World Spins Madly On"Episode 18: “Yesterday” All Sad Girls Are Beautiful, "Baby Blue"Joshua Radin, "Closer"Psapp, "Cosy In the Rocket"Diplo, Pantera Os Danadinhos, Sandra Melody & Vybz Cartel, "Diplo Rhythm"Headlights Headlights, "Everybody Needs a Fence to Lean On"Rosie Thomas, "It Don't Matter to the Sun"Devics, "Just One Breath"Corinne Bailey-Rae, "Like a Star"Shout Out Louds, "Wish I Was Dead Pt. 2"Episode 19: “What Have I Done to Deserve This?” Boy Least Likely To, "Be Gentle With Me"Madeline Peyroux, "Careless Love"Get Set Go, "I Hate Everyone"Devics, "Just One Breath"Corinne Bailey Rae, "Like A Star"Sandra Melody, "Newsflash"New Moscow, "Slow Down"Brandi Carlile, "Throw It All Away"Emiliana Torrini, "Today Has Been Okay"Episode 20: “Band Aid Covers the Bullet Hole”Ning Baizura, "Breathe Again"Sing-Sing, "Come, Sing Me a Song"Jem, "Flying High"The Last Town Chorus, "Modern Love"Tina Dico, "One"Urbs, "So Weit"Episode 21: “Superstition” Anna Nalick, "Catalyst"Luke Doucet, "Free"Foy Vance, "Gabriel and the Vagabond"Dr, Moses McNeil and Company, "Halleluah"Rufus Wainwright, "Hallelujah"Jeff Buckley, "Hallelujah"The Fray, "How to Save a Life"Devics, "Just One Breath"Jamie Lidell, "Multiply"Postal Service, "Such Great Heights"Greenskeepers, "You Don't Know Me"Episode 22: “Name of the Game”Sunshine, "C'Mon Yeah"Gnarls Barkley, "Crazy"Dressy Bessy, "Girl, You Shout!"Butterfly Boucher, "Life Is Short"Joshua Radin, "The Fear You Won't Fall"Anna Nalick, "Wreck of the Day"Phil War, "You Think I'm Crazy"Special: “Under Pressure”Breath, "Breaking Down"Mark Joseph, "Fly"Adrienne Pierce, "Fool's Gold"Merrick, "Infinity"Bright Eyes, "I Woke Up With This Song In My Head This Morning"The Weepies, "World Spins Madly On"Kendall Payne, "Scratch"Episode 23: "Blues For Sister Someone"Metric, "Police and the Private"Hotel Lights, "Follow Through"Sunshine, "Love"James Morrison, "Better Man"Caleb Kane, "Go Mad"The Chalets, "Gogo Don't Go"The Chalets, "Red High Heels"The Chalets, "Fight Your Kids"Episode 24: "Damage Case" Foy Vance, "Homebird"Kate Havnevik, "Nowhere Warm"Regina Spektor, "On The Radio"Brandi Carlile, "Tragedy"The Legends, "Something Good"Inara George, "Oh My Love"Kate Havnevik, "Unlike Me"Anna Nalick, "Breathe (2 a.m.)"Natalie Wilson, "When You Need a Friend"The HorrorPops, "Where They Wander"Episode 25: "17 Seconds" Yeah Yeah Yeahs, "Gold Lion"Snow Patrol, "Somewhere A Clock Is Ticking"Episode 26: "Deterioration of the Fight or Flight Response"KT Tunstall, "Universe And U"The Coral Sea, "Look At Her Face"Au Revoir Simone, "Through The Backyards"Gomez, "How We Operate"Episode 27: "Losing My Religion"Peter Droge, "Under The Waves"Dressy Bessy, "Side 2"Amos Lee, "Colors"Masha Qrella, "Destination Vertical"Kate Havnevik, "Grace"Snow Patrol, "Chasing Cars"SEASON THREE Episode 1: "Time Has Come Today"The Dixie Chicks, "Lullaby"Tegan & Sara, "Take Me Anywhere"Sleeping At Last, "Quicksand"Emiliana Torrini, "Nothing Brings Me Down"Gnarls Barkley, "Gone Daddy Done"Grant Lee Phillips, "Under The Milky Way"Episode 2: "I Am a Tree"Moloko, "The Time Is Now"Mat Kearney, "Crashing Down"The Chalets, "Theme From Chalets"Bittersweet, "The Mating Game"Jesus Jackson, "Running On Sunshine"Snow Patrol, "Open Your Eyes"Mat Kearney, "All I Need"Episode 3: "Sometimes a Fantasy"Outkast, "Idlewild Blues"Lilly Allen, "Take What You Take"The Pipettes, "Dirty Mind"The Bamboos, "Step It Up"The Poems, "Ballad of a Bitter End"Joe Purdy, "Can't Get It Right Today"Episode 4: "What I Am"Camera Obscura, "If Looks Could Kill"The Gossip, "Standing In The Way Of Control"Au Revoire Simone, "Back In Time"Kate Havnevik, "So - Lo"TV On The Radi, "Province"Mindy Smith, "Fall For Nothing"Episode 5: "Oh, The Guilt"Nellie McKay, "Clonie"Kate Havnevik, "Kaleidoscope"The Second Band, "Wild Is The Wind"Fionn Regan, "Be Good Or Be Gone"Keisha White, "Don't Mistake Me"Episode 6, "Let The Angels Commit"Teddy Bears, "Cobrastyle"Jim Noir, "My Patch"Peter Bjorn & John, "Young Folks"Gomez, "Notice"Vega 4, "Life is Beautiful"Episode 7: "Where The Boys Are"Beck, "Think I'm In Love"Jim Noir, "Tell Me What To Do"Luke Temple, "Make Right With You"Inara George, "Greedy"The Jealous Girlfriends, "Something In The Water"Big Sandy & His Fly Rite Boys, "It's Time"Brett Dennen, "There Is So Much More"Bedouin Soundclash, "12:59 Lullaby"Bill Ricchini, "A Cold Wind Will Blow Through Your Door"Episode 8: "Staring at the Sun"Lily Allen, "Not Big"Get Set Go, "Everybody Get Movin'"The Watson Twins, "Time of My Life"Mat Kearney, "Where We Gonna Go From Here"Ingrid Michaelson, "Breakable"Chandra Wilson (Miranda Bailey), "God Bless the Child"Episode 9: "From a Whisper to a Scream"The Dears, "You And I Are A Gang of Losers"Damien Rice, "9 Crimes"Kate Havnevik, "New Day"Episode 10: "Don't Stand So Close to Me"Anya Marina, "Sociopath"John Legend, "Show Me"Son Volt, "World Waits For You"Episode 11: "Six Days (Part I)"The Research, "Lonely Hearts Still Beat The Same"William Fitzsimmons, "Passion Play"Emiliana Torrini, "Beggars Prayer (demo)"Michelle Featherstone, "Rest Of My Life"Travis, "Love Will Come Through"Episode 12: "Six Days (Part II)"1. OK Go, "Here It Goes Again"The song plays as Meredith and Derek bicker in bed after not getting much sleep. Izzie and George discuss Izzie's check.2. Regina Spektor, "Fidelity"The song plays as Addison and Callie talk about Addison's choice to not have Mark's baby.3. Ingrid Michaelson, "The Way That I Am"The song plays as Cristina complains about sleeping alone, and Meredith confesses she feels jealous of George's relationship with his dad. Cristina brings Burke his dinner.4. Susanna & The Magical Orchestra, "Love Will Tear Us Apart"The song plays as the O'Malley family makes a decision about George's dad.5. Gary Jules, "Falling Awake"The song plays as Burke, Cristina and Derek talk about Mr. o'Malley. His family is gathered around him in the hospital. George's friends wait in support of him.6. The Slip, "Life in Disguise"The song plays as Cristina consoles George, Alex and Addison spend time together, and Derek goes to sleep beside Meredith.Episode 13: “Great Expectations”1. Lily Frost, “Enchantment”Burke has Derek and Meredith over for a dinner party at his house, and Cristina sits in the kitchen counter tossing cereal into her mouth and drinking wine straight from the bottle.2. Umbrellas, “Ships”Callie, Cristina and Richard operate on a patient. Derek yells at Meredith about telling Sloan about the chief. Dr. Bailey asks Dr. Burke for help. Izzie talks to Rachel about letting go of Jilly who is going to die of a disease.3. Skye, “Love Show”Addison invites Alex to a surgery. Meredith and Derek fight, but make up. Cristina and Burke make up. George and Callie make up.Episode 14: "Wishin' and Hopin'"1. Sybarite, "Runaway" feat. PsappThe song plays as Izzie and Bailey look onto their new "Denny Duquette Memorial" clinic. Cristina considers her ring. Meredith prepares to speak with her mother.2. Beck, "Elevator Music"The song plays as Izzie and Alex offer a patient a free consultation. Ellis and Cristina talk about Meredith.3. Miho Hatori, "Barracuda"The song plays as Vincent learns about his girlfriend. Cristina begs to be included in a surgery. Meredith warns Derek about her mother but Derek talks to Ellis anyway.4. Iain Archer, "Canal Song"The song plays as Meredith talks with Richard.5. Susanna & The Magical Orchestra, "Believer"The song plays as Richard and Ellis talk about Meredith and their past relationship.6. The Whitest Boy Alive, "Fireworks"The song plays as Cristina and Burke share their moment.Episode 15: "Walk On Water"1. Radio Citizen, "The Hop"Meredith sits in the bathtub alone, Derek tells Meredith he is concerned about her, Izzie misses George, Cristina tells Burke not to tell anyone they are engaged.2. Union of Knives, "Opposite Direction"Bailey tells interns to get out there and help people, Meredith tends to the wounded.3. 8MM, "Liar"Izzie tells Vince to find search and rescue, Derek asks Meredith if she is upset, Addison and Richard talk, Cristina confronts Burke.4. Snow Patrol, "Make This Go On Forever"Alex checks on Jane Doe, Mrs. Heit waits for word on her son, Rick starts to have a seizure, A crowd of distraught family members yells at Alex, and Meredith is accidentally knocked off the pier into the water.Episode 16: "Drowning On Dry Land"1. Butterfly Boucher, "A Bitter Song"The song plays as the episode opens and Meredith struggles in the water. Later, the track plays at the end of the episode as the doctors furiously work on Meredith.2. Kate Havnevik, "Timeless"Song plays as Izzie drills into the patient's head. The little girl stares at the water as Derek finally emerges with Meredith.3. Patrick Watson, "The Great Escape"The song plays as Izzie is in surgery with her patient. Alex posts pictures from the morgue.Episode 17: "Some Kind of Miracle"1. Aqualung, "The Lake"The song plays early in the episode as the Chief works on Meredith.2. Damien Rice, "Sleep Don't Weep"This track is showcased when Meredith's heart flatlines, and the doctors look on, perplexed - and unsure if they should continue.3. Unkle Bob, "Swans"Song plays as Chief says goodbye to Ellis, Derek sleeps by Meredith, and Izzie & Denny sense each other in the hallway.Episode 18: "Scars and Souvenirs"1. Koop, "Come To Me"Plays as Izzie gets surprised by Alex in the morning, and she complains to Meredith about it. At the same time, George complains to his wife, Callie, about Izzie.2. Gomez, "Girlshapedlovedrug"Cristina catches up with Colin, who shows up out of the blue. Derek and George prep for her operation. Callie tells George about her family.3. Psapp, "Hi"This one plays while Meredith tells Derek she is having dinner with her father, Thatcher, and the interns talk in the cafeteria.4. Wild Sweet Orange, "Land Of No Return"Meredith and her father and stepmother have dinner. Meanwhile, Dr. Burke questions Cristina about her past relationships.5. Anya Marina, "Move You"George and Izzie get drunk and have a blast together. Alex checks on Jane Doe, again. Cristina and Meredith have a heart to heart.Episode 19: "My Favorite Mistake"1. Mirah, "La Familia"This song plays at the beginning of the episode as Izzie wakes up and Meredith and Cristina ask her questions about her night.2. Alamo Race Track, "Black Cat John Brown"At lunch, Izzie asks Meredith about blacking out after drinking. Cristina talks about Burke. Izzie asks about Jane Doe's face selection.3. Adam Merrin, "Still Alright"You hear this song as George has a flashback to the night before... and he goes to confront Izzie about it.4. Let's Go Sailing, "All I Want From You Is Love"This song plays as Meredith harvests bone during her much-anticipated operation, and Cristina amputates her patient's foot.5. Let's Go Sailing, "Sideways"Alex talks to Jane Doe about her new face. Cristina talks to Burke about their wedding. Meredith talks to Derek about her dad.Episode 20: "Time After Time" 1. Amy Winehouse, "You Know I'm No Good"The song plays as Burke and Cristina operate on a patient.2. The Whitest Boy Alive, "Burning"Plays as Cristina and Meredith discuss their issues with Colin and Susan, and Alex asks for Cristina's help.3. Nouvelle Vague, "Dancing With Myself"Playing in the background as the interns hang out at the clinic and talk about their patients.4. Maria Taylor, "Clean Getaway"George helps Izzie get dressed and she tells him about her family.5. Lullaby Baxter, "Fontana Fontaine"This track plays when Derek asks Bailey for advice about Meredith, and as George takes a recovering Izzie down to pediatrics.6. Maria Taylor, "A Good Start"Jane Doe argues with Alex. Burke and Cristina talk about Colin at home. Susan confronts Meredith and they have a heart to heart. Addison finds Richard hitting on a woman... and decides to intervene.Episode 21: "Desire"1. The Reddmen, "The Secrets of Amanda Prine"We hear this song as the interns study for a big exam.2. Let's Go Sailing, "Better Off"Callie and Addison talk about their various relationships and feelings while this song plays (and Ava listens) in the background.3. The Bird & The Bee, "Again & Again"The interns continue studying, while testing out wedding cakes.4. Beck, "Nausea"The surgeons and interns participate in various operations.5. Anna Waronker, "How Am I Doing"This song plays at the end of the episode, as Cristina is studying and picks a cake, while George and Izzie talk about the future, and Addison unsuccessfully tries to get Alex to hang out with her.Episodes 22 & 23: "The Other Side of This Life (Parts I & II)"1. Feist, "Sealion"The song plays as the interns are wakeful at night, and Cristina awakes to find Burke's mother is there.2. The Mary Onettes, "Lost"The song plays as Addison Montgomery drives along the Pacific coast and enters the Oceanside Wellness Clinic.3. The Broken West, "Down In The Valley"Addison enters the Wellness Clinic and finds Naomi.4. The Switches, "Message From Yuz"Naomi tells Addison they have an opening.5. The Rosewood Thieves, "Los Angeles"Couples therapy at the Wellness Center.6. Jem, "California Sun"Naomi and Addison talk, Violet runs into her ex.7. The Adored, "Not Having It"Cooper cries over his stripped vehicle.8. Brandi Carlile, "Turpentine"Addison yells at the elevator to stop talking!Episode 24: "Testing 1-2-3"1. Let's Go Sailing, "This Rope Is Long"This song plays as Meredith gets dressed in a black dress as the interns study. Callie and George study. Meredith talks with Derek at the hospital and Cristina and Burke talk about the wedding.2. Amy Winehouse, "Wake Up Alone"The song plays as George tries to talk to the Chief, and the doctors operate on the three hypothermic mountain climbers.3. Ingrid Michaelson, "Corner Of Your Heart"Alex and Ava argue about her memory and what she really knows. Izzie tries to talk with George about Mercy West but becomes upset.4. The Weather Machines, "Stains Of Saints"This song plays as Addison joins Derek, Mark and Preston at Burke's bachelor party at Joe's bar.5. Paolo Nutini, "Million Faces"A mysterious woman offers to buy Derek a drink in the bar, while Ava (or Rebecca Pope) and Alex reconcile, and Richard finds Adele.Episode 25: "Didn't We Almost Have It All"1. The Jealous Girlfriends, "Roboxula"Callie copies Cristina's vows onto her hand, Izzie and Meredith play toilet paper bride, Richard tells Mark he won't be Chief, and Bailey tells Derek that they found the fourth mountain climber.2. Grace Potter, "Falling Or Flying"Cristina is unable to sleep on the eve of her wedding day, Alex watches Rebecca and her husband talk, Derek talks to Meredith about his night.3. Ray Lamontagne, "Hold You In My Arms"Burke practices his vows in the O.R., Callie says she wants a baby, Alex talks with Rebecca's husband, Jeff, while he holds her baby.4. Coburn, "Closer"Cristina operates in order to clear her head before the ceremony. Izzie helps George tie his tie and declares her feelings for him.5. Ray Lamontagne, "Within You"The interns get their test results. Ava begs Alex to give her a reason to stay, and Meredith and Derek have a disappointing heart to heart.6. The Hereafter, "Eulogy"The song plays as Alex talks to Addison about Ava. George and Bailey talk about his results, and whether they failed one another. Meanwhile, the ladies get ready for the wedding.7. The Mary Onettes, "Explosions"Cristina readies herself and Preston goes to check on her.8. Ingrid Michaelson, "Keep Breathing"The song plays in the final few minutes of the episode as Alex looks for Rebecca, Meredith helps Cristina out of her dress, Callie watches Izzie sitting in the chapel, George meets Lexie Grey, and Richard talks with Derek about the Chief position.P.S.在雨天，在晚上，反反复复听着曾经在剧集里出现的那些歌。

随着歌的旋律模模糊糊记得起那些情节，那些漂浮不定的情绪。

因为这部剧，记得Jem，记得Thirteen Senses，记得Snow Patrol，记得Keane，当然也会记得Meredith、Dereck、Cristina、Izzie这些人物。

他们的哭与笑，快乐与悲伤，都在这些那些歌中。

1花了很長時間看Grey's Anatomy,之後又花了很長時間努力不去思考。

醫療題材的片子很容易出彩，也很容易讓人覺得厭倦，《白色巨塔》走的是反面對比路綫，因果輪回報應不爽，配一首宗教歌曲就讓人落淚。

相比之下，美國人喜歡沒事就說說人生，其實這樣挺好的，人生就需要一些淺薄又積極的探討。

把人生歸結成一種美國式的黑色幽默之後又刻意壓低到扭曲零碎的生活瑣事中去，好像只有這樣，編造出來的理論才能夠得到圓滿。

這一原則的另一個結局就是做出來的東西特別真實，有時候簡直是太他媽真實了。

大多數的矛盾只有三种原因，對於當下自我體認的不滿，對於當下他人對自我映射的不滿，然後導致了對過去未來的人生的焦慮。

毉患關係的矛盾是人本身的矛盾，一方面對自己無法掌握自己生命的結局感到絕望，另一方面因爲了解前者的絕望，所以難以自我安慰。

不知道自己要什麽；想知道自己要什麽；有時候以爲知道了自己要什麽；有時候只知道自己不要什麽。

長得一臉韓國式plain的Christina是所有人的榜樣，在她一臉理所當然的道德感薄弱之下。

最情比金堅是 Christina對Meredith：“緊急聯絡人我填了你的名字。

”最無可奈何是Bruke對Christina：“我們算是一對了，這沒什麽大不了的。

”最望塵莫及是Izzie對Christina：“我不是妒嫉她的選擇，我只是妒嫉她這麽堅定這麽純粹。

”如同我們所猜想的，醫生對於自己的人生，比常人有更多的不認同感。

這就好像法官對於公平正義，老師對於教學相長，國家領導人對於國家本身的定義一樣。

《無人生還》裏的法官，到最後都得意于自己病態的舉證方式：但是説到底，這是死循環。

2很多人不能認同Meredith，有可能是對美劇中瓊瑤戯份的厭惡。

要是都像越獄那樣，每集都刺激刺激刺激每秒鐘，就回到了好萊塢動作片的老路上。

你還記得ABC是怎樣在好萊塢疲軟的時候殺進的麽？

因爲人們關心的是内歷時的人物命運：Meredith在Seattle Grace的第一年，第二年……20個人中只有6個女人，而在這20個人之中，有5個將在壓力下崩潰，有2個會要求離開。

George要重復實習，Alex留起了鬍子，Mark戯份加重，連男主角也對第三季的劇本表示了不滿，如果第四季還這麽混亂的話，他就要甩手不干了。

接下來的事情你們都知道了：演O'mally的演員坦誠自己是同性戀，Addison功成名就spin off，Burke無法解決内部矛盾……然後，然後編劇罷工開始了。

回過頭來想一想，Meredith的塑造是成功的。

她優秀得不露聲色，因此不同于典型亞裔美國人那種強迫式的自我要求，同時又有美國女人的優點：寬容和理解（至少看起來是這樣）。

決絕?不，生活裏不流行決絕。

關心？

關心他人的生活，而不是内心。

無論如何，劇本是用事件而不是獨白編織的，如果讓觀衆過多地看出編劇們表達的用心，毫無疑問是一種失敗——人物本身會有自己的發展，但是觀衆又非得要求緊張激烈的情節，稀奇古怪的病例，這確實是一種對於編劇能力的考驗。

在Meredith瀕死的時候，各種綫索匯聚到一起，以四個人的方式把三季中重要事件和代表意義呈現出來，其中的一些綫索結束了，比如代表着 Meredith母親的護士隨著她母親的死去也消失了，但是另一些沒有，代表着主角感情選擇的Bonnie未來肯定還會出現。

被炸成脆片的爆破組組長也許代表Meredith的勇氣，但是這種無所不能的勇氣，正如Meredith所說，會“fade away”，還有人氣最高的Denny和Izzie兩肩相觸的刹那，靈犀一點天人永隔：所有美好的東西最終都會消失，如果不能move on，你就只能困在原地。

是的，我們得承認人心脆弱。

因爲害怕受傷害，太容易對珍惜的東西失去信心。

像Christina那種受亞洲同胞們讚賞的堅強，其實是更深的自傷。

如果真的完全不相信愛，怎樣完好地活在人間？

考文雕的時候滿腦子都是Meredith的金髮和抿成直綫的嘴。

我一直覺得很層次的金髮很好看，但是一不小心，就會面如土色。

我能理解美國精神是缺乏武俠小説熏陶的，她和他們都不知道什麽是“醉笑陪君叁萬場，不訴離傷。

”3在列文的莊園，一男一女相遇了，兩個孤獨的，憂鬱的人。

他們相互閒有好感，暗中希望能將兩人的生活結合到一起。

他們只等着能單獨在一起的機會，以互相表白。

有一天他們終于在沒有第三者的情況下同処一個小樹林。

他們在那裏采蘑菇。

兩人内心激動，一言不發，知道時機來了，不要讓它溜走。

當時他們已經靜默了很久，女人突然開始說起蘑菇來了。

這完全是“違背她意願的，意想不到的”。

隨後，又是一陣靜默，男人掂量着字眼想表白，可是他沒有談愛情，“出於一種意想不到的衝動”，他也跟她談起蘑菇來。

在回家的路上，他們還在談着蘑菇，一點辦法也沒有，心中充滿了絕望，因爲他們知道，他們永遠都不會談到愛情了。

以上這個例子是昆德拉舉出來證明人類的行動怎樣超越出因果關係的可解釋範圍。

事實上，這似乎是人類藝術的一個最大的突破口：科學證明那些可重復的事件，藝術則在不可重復的神秘性上佔有優勢。

亞裏士多德認爲詩歌比歷史更真實，就是這個道理。

從這個方面來説，編劇罷工最終會贏得勝利，因爲他們手中掌握着美國社會的“真實”，而這種真實性總是被需要的。

Meredith夢到自己拉開冰櫃，看到死掉的自己開口説話。

死亡是涼爽的夜晚，自己的掙扎卻很徒勞。

這是再真實不過的想法，誰也沒有立場說誰淺薄。

對於那些認爲Grey's Anatomy刻意拉長劇情慘失人氣的，有些確實可觀，對於那些認爲主角形象塑造失敗的，則可能道德感過於強烈誘失中立了。

有時候我們笑貧不笑娼。