鹿角男孩第一季

SEASON ONEEpisode 1: “A Hard Day’s Night” O.A.O.T.S., "Dance"Thirteen Senses, "Into the Fire"Butterfly Boucher, "Life Is Short"Rilo Kiley, "Portions for Foxes"Vaughan Penn, "Ready to Rise"BANG sugar BANG, "Super Cool?Jem, "They"Episode 2: “The First Cut is the Deepest” The Cardigans, "Live and Learn"The Ditty Bops, "Sister Kate"Keane, "Somewhere Only We Know"Get Set Go, "Wait"Tegan and Sara, "You Wouldn't Like Me"Episode 3: “Winning a Battle, Losing the War” Lisa Loeb, "Fools Like Me"Tegan and Sara, "I Won't Be Left"The Ditty Bops, "There's a Girl"The Ditty Bops, "Wishful Thinking"Reindeer Section, "You Are My Joy"Episode 4: “No Man’s Land”Get Set Go, "Break Your Heart"The Eames Era, "Could Be Anything"Rosie Thomas, "Let Myself Fall"Sia, "Sunday"Vaughan Penn, "Truth"Tegan and Sara, "Where Does the Good Go?"Episode 5: “Shake Your Groove Thing” Ivy, "Edge of the Ocean"Interpol, "Evil"Dee, "Money Girl"Buffseeds, "Sparkle Me"Psapp, "Tiger, My Friend"The Ditty Bops, "Wake Up"Episode 6: “If Tomorrow Never Comes” Psapp, "Chapter"Butterfly Boucher, "Never Leave Your Heart Alone"Jem, "Save Me"The Ditty Bops, "Walk or Ride"Episode 7: “The Self-Destruct Button” Tegan and Sara, "Downtown"Wilco, "Hummingbird"Joe Purdy, "Suitcase"ACDC, "The Self-Destruct Button"Jem, "Wish I"Episode 8: “Save Me” Nellie McKay, "David"Masha Qrella, "Feels Like"Tegan and Sara, "Fix You Up"Joe Purdy, "I Love the Rain the Most"78 Saab, "No Illusions"Laura Veirs, "Rapture"Episode 9: “Who’s Zoomin’ Who?” A.M. Sixty, "Big As the Sky"Psapp, "Cosy In the Rocket"Medeski, Martin & Wood, "End of the World Party"Iron & Wine, "Naked As We Came"Maria Taylor, "Song Beneath the Song"Nellie McKay, "The Dog Song"The Radio, "Whatever Gets You Through Today"SEASON TWOEpisode 1: “Raindrops Keep Fallin’ On My Head” Firstcom, "All I Need"Michelle Branch, "Breathe"Esthero & Sean Lennon, "Everyday Is a Holiday (With You)"Ivy, "Feel So Free"Bow Wow Wow, "I Want Candy"Mike Doughty, "Looking At the World from the Bottom of a Well"Kate Earl, "Some one to Love"Blue-Eyed Son, "Step Away From the Cliff"Joe Purdy, "The City"Episode 2: “Enough is Enough (No More Tears)” Goldfrapp, "Beautiful"Joy Zipper, "Go Tell The World"Jem, "Just a Ride"kt tunstall, "Suddenly I See"Brandi Carlile, "What Can I Say"Episode 3: “Make Me Lose Control” Sylvie Lewis, "By Heart"Inara George, "Fools In Love"Elevator Action, "I'm a Bitch"Roisin Murphy, "Ruby Blue"Get Set Go, "Sleep"Maria Taylor, "Song Beneath the Song"Episode 4: “Deny, Deny, Deny” Ben Lee, "Catch My Disease"The Delgados, "I Fought the Angels"Merrick, "Infinity"Rolsin Murphy, "Ramalama"Episode 5: “Bring the Pain” Way Out West, "Don't Forget Me"Mike Doughty, "I Hear the Bells"Tegan and Sara, "Not Tonight"Roisin Murphy, "Prelude to Love In the Making"Blue-Eyed Son, "Step Away from the Cliff"Blue-Eyed Son, "When I Come Home"Cowboy Racer, "Yellow Horse"Episode 6: “Into You Like a Train” The Hereafter, "Back Where I Was"B.C. Camplight, "Blood and Peanut Butter"Umbrellas, "The City Lights"Emiliana Torrini, "Today Has Been Okay"Episode 7: “Something to Talk About” The Faders, "Better Off Dead"Annie, "Chewing Gum"Mark Joseph, "Get Through"kt tunstall, "other side of the world"Rosie Thomas, "Since You've Been Around"Episode 8: “Let it Be” Gabin, "Bang Bang to the Rock n' Roll"Joe Purdy, "Far Away Blues"Nouvelle Vague, "I Melt With You"Anya Marina, "Miss Halfway"The Faders, "No Sleep Tonight"The Chalets, "Sexy Mistake"Episode 9: “Thanks for the Memories” The O.A.O.T.'s, "Dance"Dressy Bessy, "New Song (From Me to You)"Keren Ann, "Not Going Anywhere"Fannypack, "Nu Nu (Yeah Yeah)"Josh Rouse, "Sad Eyes"Emiliana Torrini, "Serenade"Nellie McKay, "The Dog Song"Mark McAdam, "Too Hard"Episode 10: “Much Too Much”Get Set Go, "Crying Shame"James Blunt, "High"Greenskeepers, "Lotion"Roisin Murphy, "Night of the Dancing Flame"Lifehouse, "You and Me"Episode 11: “Owner of a Lonely Heart” Jim Noir, "I Me You"Emiliana Torrini, "Sunny Road"James Blunt, "Tears and Rain"Gemma Hayes, "Two Step"Moonbabies, "War On Sound"Episode 12: “Grandma Got Run Over By a Reindeer” Jet, "Back Door Santa"Maria Taylor, "Christmas After All"Holidays on Ice, "Here Comes Your Ride"Sixpence None The Richer, "It Came Upon a Midnight Clear"The LeeVees, "Latke Clan"Catie Curtis, "Lo, How A Rose E'er Blooming"Lou Rawls, "Santa Claus Is Comin' to Town"Nat King Cole, "The Christmas Song (Merry Christmas to You)"Mascott & Dave Derby, "This Christmastime"Episode 13: “Begin the Begin” Slow Runner, "Break Your Momma's Back"The 88, "Hide Another Mistake"Kraak & Smaak, "One of These Days"Cary Brothers, "Ride"Episode 14: “Tell Me Sweet Little Lies” Saint Etienne, "A Good Thing"Carey Ott, "Am I Just One"Adrienne Pierce, "Fool's Gold"Sam Winch, "I Got Some Moves"Metric, "Monster Hospital"Mike Tarantino, "Wienermobile Girl"Episode 15: “Break On Through” Emilia, "Big Big World"Leeroy Stagger, "Just In Case"Landon Pigg, "Sailed On"Kendall Payne, "Scratch"Rebecca Lynn, "Small World, Big Girl"Kate Earl, "Someone to Love"Aqueduct, "The Suggestion Box"Vassy, "Wanna Fly"Episode 16: “It’s the End of the World…”Big Big World (TNT Big Phat Mix): EmiliaMonotypes, "Dead Streets"Michael Stipe & Chris Martin, "In The Sun"Joseph Arthur, "In the Sun"Ursula 1000, "Kaboom"kt tunstall, "Miniature Disasters"Kate Havnevik, "Unlike Me"Episode 17: “... As We Know It” Greenskeepers, "Back In The Wild"Anna Nalick, "Breathe (2 a.m.)"Foy Vance, "Homebird"Correatown, "I Tell Myself"Ambulance LTD, "Stay Where You Are"Kate Havnevik, "Unlike Me"The Weepies, "World Spins Madly On"Episode 18: “Yesterday” All Sad Girls Are Beautiful, "Baby Blue"Joshua Radin, "Closer"Psapp, "Cosy In the Rocket"Diplo, Pantera Os Danadinhos, Sandra Melody & Vybz Cartel, "Diplo Rhythm"Headlights Headlights, "Everybody Needs a Fence to Lean On"Rosie Thomas, "It Don't Matter to the Sun"Devics, "Just One Breath"Corinne Bailey-Rae, "Like a Star"Shout Out Louds, "Wish I Was Dead Pt. 2"Episode 19: “What Have I Done to Deserve This?” Boy Least Likely To, "Be Gentle With Me"Madeline Peyroux, "Careless Love"Get Set Go, "I Hate Everyone"Devics, "Just One Breath"Corinne Bailey Rae, "Like A Star"Sandra Melody, "Newsflash"New Moscow, "Slow Down"Brandi Carlile, "Throw It All Away"Emiliana Torrini, "Today Has Been Okay"Episode 20: “Band Aid Covers the Bullet Hole”Ning Baizura, "Breathe Again"Sing-Sing, "Come, Sing Me a Song"Jem, "Flying High"The Last Town Chorus, "Modern Love"Tina Dico, "One"Urbs, "So Weit"Episode 21: “Superstition” Anna Nalick, "Catalyst"Luke Doucet, "Free"Foy Vance, "Gabriel and the Vagabond"Dr, Moses McNeil and Company, "Halleluah"Rufus Wainwright, "Hallelujah"Jeff Buckley, "Hallelujah"The Fray, "How to Save a Life"Devics, "Just One Breath"Jamie Lidell, "Multiply"Postal Service, "Such Great Heights"Greenskeepers, "You Don't Know Me"Episode 22: “Name of the Game”Sunshine, "C'Mon Yeah"Gnarls Barkley, "Crazy"Dressy Bessy, "Girl, You Shout!"Butterfly Boucher, "Life Is Short"Joshua Radin, "The Fear You Won't Fall"Anna Nalick, "Wreck of the Day"Phil War, "You Think I'm Crazy"Special: “Under Pressure”Breath, "Breaking Down"Mark Joseph, "Fly"Adrienne Pierce, "Fool's Gold"Merrick, "Infinity"Bright Eyes, "I Woke Up With This Song In My Head This Morning"The Weepies, "World Spins Madly On"Kendall Payne, "Scratch"Episode 23: "Blues For Sister Someone"Metric, "Police and the Private"Hotel Lights, "Follow Through"Sunshine, "Love"James Morrison, "Better Man"Caleb Kane, "Go Mad"The Chalets, "Gogo Don't Go"The Chalets, "Red High Heels"The Chalets, "Fight Your Kids"Episode 24: "Damage Case" Foy Vance, "Homebird"Kate Havnevik, "Nowhere Warm"Regina Spektor, "On The Radio"Brandi Carlile, "Tragedy"The Legends, "Something Good"Inara George, "Oh My Love"Kate Havnevik, "Unlike Me"Anna Nalick, "Breathe (2 a.m.)"Natalie Wilson, "When You Need a Friend"The HorrorPops, "Where They Wander"Episode 25: "17 Seconds" Yeah Yeah Yeahs, "Gold Lion"Snow Patrol, "Somewhere A Clock Is Ticking"Episode 26: "Deterioration of the Fight or Flight Response"KT Tunstall, "Universe And U"The Coral Sea, "Look At Her Face"Au Revoir Simone, "Through The Backyards"Gomez, "How We Operate"Episode 27: "Losing My Religion"Peter Droge, "Under The Waves"Dressy Bessy, "Side 2"Amos Lee, "Colors"Masha Qrella, "Destination Vertical"Kate Havnevik, "Grace"Snow Patrol, "Chasing Cars"SEASON THREE Episode 1: "Time Has Come Today"The Dixie Chicks, "Lullaby"Tegan & Sara, "Take Me Anywhere"Sleeping At Last, "Quicksand"Emiliana Torrini, "Nothing Brings Me Down"Gnarls Barkley, "Gone Daddy Done"Grant Lee Phillips, "Under The Milky Way"Episode 2: "I Am a Tree"Moloko, "The Time Is Now"Mat Kearney, "Crashing Down"The Chalets, "Theme From Chalets"Bittersweet, "The Mating Game"Jesus Jackson, "Running On Sunshine"Snow Patrol, "Open Your Eyes"Mat Kearney, "All I Need"Episode 3: "Sometimes a Fantasy"Outkast, "Idlewild Blues"Lilly Allen, "Take What You Take"The Pipettes, "Dirty Mind"The Bamboos, "Step It Up"The Poems, "Ballad of a Bitter End"Joe Purdy, "Can't Get It Right Today"Episode 4: "What I Am"Camera Obscura, "If Looks Could Kill"The Gossip, "Standing In The Way Of Control"Au Revoire Simone, "Back In Time"Kate Havnevik, "So - Lo"TV On The Radi, "Province"Mindy Smith, "Fall For Nothing"Episode 5: "Oh, The Guilt"Nellie McKay, "Clonie"Kate Havnevik, "Kaleidoscope"The Second Band, "Wild Is The Wind"Fionn Regan, "Be Good Or Be Gone"Keisha White, "Don't Mistake Me"Episode 6, "Let The Angels Commit"Teddy Bears, "Cobrastyle"Jim Noir, "My Patch"Peter Bjorn & John, "Young Folks"Gomez, "Notice"Vega 4, "Life is Beautiful"Episode 7: "Where The Boys Are"Beck, "Think I'm In Love"Jim Noir, "Tell Me What To Do"Luke Temple, "Make Right With You"Inara George, "Greedy"The Jealous Girlfriends, "Something In The Water"Big Sandy & His Fly Rite Boys, "It's Time"Brett Dennen, "There Is So Much More"Bedouin Soundclash, "12:59 Lullaby"Bill Ricchini, "A Cold Wind Will Blow Through Your Door"Episode 8: "Staring at the Sun"Lily Allen, "Not Big"Get Set Go, "Everybody Get Movin'"The Watson Twins, "Time of My Life"Mat Kearney, "Where We Gonna Go From Here"Ingrid Michaelson, "Breakable"Chandra Wilson (Miranda Bailey), "God Bless the Child"Episode 9: "From a Whisper to a Scream"The Dears, "You And I Are A Gang of Losers"Damien Rice, "9 Crimes"Kate Havnevik, "New Day"Episode 10: "Don't Stand So Close to Me"Anya Marina, "Sociopath"John Legend, "Show Me"Son Volt, "World Waits For You"Episode 11: "Six Days (Part I)"The Research, "Lonely Hearts Still Beat The Same"William Fitzsimmons, "Passion Play"Emiliana Torrini, "Beggars Prayer (demo)"Michelle Featherstone, "Rest Of My Life"Travis, "Love Will Come Through"Episode 12: "Six Days (Part II)"1. OK Go, "Here It Goes Again"The song plays as Meredith and Derek bicker in bed after not getting much sleep. Izzie and George discuss Izzie's check.2. Regina Spektor, "Fidelity"The song plays as Addison and Callie talk about Addison's choice to not have Mark's baby.3. Ingrid Michaelson, "The Way That I Am"The song plays as Cristina complains about sleeping alone, and Meredith confesses she feels jealous of George's relationship with his dad. Cristina brings Burke his dinner.4. Susanna & The Magical Orchestra, "Love Will Tear Us Apart"The song plays as the O'Malley family makes a decision about George's dad.5. Gary Jules, "Falling Awake"The song plays as Burke, Cristina and Derek talk about Mr. o'Malley. His family is gathered around him in the hospital. George's friends wait in support of him.6. The Slip, "Life in Disguise"The song plays as Cristina consoles George, Alex and Addison spend time together, and Derek goes to sleep beside Meredith.Episode 13: “Great Expectations”1. Lily Frost, “Enchantment”Burke has Derek and Meredith over for a dinner party at his house, and Cristina sits in the kitchen counter tossing cereal into her mouth and drinking wine straight from the bottle.2. Umbrellas, “Ships”Callie, Cristina and Richard operate on a patient. Derek yells at Meredith about telling Sloan about the chief. Dr. Bailey asks Dr. Burke for help. Izzie talks to Rachel about letting go of Jilly who is going to die of a disease.3. Skye, “Love Show”Addison invites Alex to a surgery. Meredith and Derek fight, but make up. Cristina and Burke make up. George and Callie make up.Episode 14: "Wishin' and Hopin'"1. Sybarite, "Runaway" feat. PsappThe song plays as Izzie and Bailey look onto their new "Denny Duquette Memorial" clinic. Cristina considers her ring. Meredith prepares to speak with her mother.2. Beck, "Elevator Music"The song plays as Izzie and Alex offer a patient a free consultation. Ellis and Cristina talk about Meredith.3. Miho Hatori, "Barracuda"The song plays as Vincent learns about his girlfriend. Cristina begs to be included in a surgery. Meredith warns Derek about her mother but Derek talks to Ellis anyway.4. Iain Archer, "Canal Song"The song plays as Meredith talks with Richard.5. Susanna & The Magical Orchestra, "Believer"The song plays as Richard and Ellis talk about Meredith and their past relationship.6. The Whitest Boy Alive, "Fireworks"The song plays as Cristina and Burke share their moment.Episode 15: "Walk On Water"1. Radio Citizen, "The Hop"Meredith sits in the bathtub alone, Derek tells Meredith he is concerned about her, Izzie misses George, Cristina tells Burke not to tell anyone they are engaged.2. Union of Knives, "Opposite Direction"Bailey tells interns to get out there and help people, Meredith tends to the wounded.3. 8MM, "Liar"Izzie tells Vince to find search and rescue, Derek asks Meredith if she is upset, Addison and Richard talk, Cristina confronts Burke.4. Snow Patrol, "Make This Go On Forever"Alex checks on Jane Doe, Mrs. Heit waits for word on her son, Rick starts to have a seizure, A crowd of distraught family members yells at Alex, and Meredith is accidentally knocked off the pier into the water.Episode 16: "Drowning On Dry Land"1. Butterfly Boucher, "A Bitter Song"The song plays as the episode opens and Meredith struggles in the water. Later, the track plays at the end of the episode as the doctors furiously work on Meredith.2. Kate Havnevik, "Timeless"Song plays as Izzie drills into the patient's head. The little girl stares at the water as Derek finally emerges with Meredith.3. Patrick Watson, "The Great Escape"The song plays as Izzie is in surgery with her patient. Alex posts pictures from the morgue.Episode 17: "Some Kind of Miracle"1. Aqualung, "The Lake"The song plays early in the episode as the Chief works on Meredith.2. Damien Rice, "Sleep Don't Weep"This track is showcased when Meredith's heart flatlines, and the doctors look on, perplexed - and unsure if they should continue.3. Unkle Bob, "Swans"Song plays as Chief says goodbye to Ellis, Derek sleeps by Meredith, and Izzie & Denny sense each other in the hallway.Episode 18: "Scars and Souvenirs"1. Koop, "Come To Me"Plays as Izzie gets surprised by Alex in the morning, and she complains to Meredith about it. At the same time, George complains to his wife, Callie, about Izzie.2. Gomez, "Girlshapedlovedrug"Cristina catches up with Colin, who shows up out of the blue. Derek and George prep for her operation. Callie tells George about her family.3. Psapp, "Hi"This one plays while Meredith tells Derek she is having dinner with her father, Thatcher, and the interns talk in the cafeteria.4. Wild Sweet Orange, "Land Of No Return"Meredith and her father and stepmother have dinner. Meanwhile, Dr. Burke questions Cristina about her past relationships.5. Anya Marina, "Move You"George and Izzie get drunk and have a blast together. Alex checks on Jane Doe, again. Cristina and Meredith have a heart to heart.Episode 19: "My Favorite Mistake"1. Mirah, "La Familia"This song plays at the beginning of the episode as Izzie wakes up and Meredith and Cristina ask her questions about her night.2. Alamo Race Track, "Black Cat John Brown"At lunch, Izzie asks Meredith about blacking out after drinking. Cristina talks about Burke. Izzie asks about Jane Doe's face selection.3. Adam Merrin, "Still Alright"You hear this song as George has a flashback to the night before... and he goes to confront Izzie about it.4. Let's Go Sailing, "All I Want From You Is Love"This song plays as Meredith harvests bone during her much-anticipated operation, and Cristina amputates her patient's foot.5. Let's Go Sailing, "Sideways"Alex talks to Jane Doe about her new face. Cristina talks to Burke about their wedding. Meredith talks to Derek about her dad.Episode 20: "Time After Time" 1. Amy Winehouse, "You Know I'm No Good"The song plays as Burke and Cristina operate on a patient.2. The Whitest Boy Alive, "Burning"Plays as Cristina and Meredith discuss their issues with Colin and Susan, and Alex asks for Cristina's help.3. Nouvelle Vague, "Dancing With Myself"Playing in the background as the interns hang out at the clinic and talk about their patients.4. Maria Taylor, "Clean Getaway"George helps Izzie get dressed and she tells him about her family.5. Lullaby Baxter, "Fontana Fontaine"This track plays when Derek asks Bailey for advice about Meredith, and as George takes a recovering Izzie down to pediatrics.6. Maria Taylor, "A Good Start"Jane Doe argues with Alex. Burke and Cristina talk about Colin at home. Susan confronts Meredith and they have a heart to heart. Addison finds Richard hitting on a woman... and decides to intervene.Episode 21: "Desire"1. The Reddmen, "The Secrets of Amanda Prine"We hear this song as the interns study for a big exam.2. Let's Go Sailing, "Better Off"Callie and Addison talk about their various relationships and feelings while this song plays (and Ava listens) in the background.3. The Bird & The Bee, "Again & Again"The interns continue studying, while testing out wedding cakes.4. Beck, "Nausea"The surgeons and interns participate in various operations.5. Anna Waronker, "How Am I Doing"This song plays at the end of the episode, as Cristina is studying and picks a cake, while George and Izzie talk about the future, and Addison unsuccessfully tries to get Alex to hang out with her.Episodes 22 & 23: "The Other Side of This Life (Parts I & II)"1. Feist, "Sealion"The song plays as the interns are wakeful at night, and Cristina awakes to find Burke's mother is there.2. The Mary Onettes, "Lost"The song plays as Addison Montgomery drives along the Pacific coast and enters the Oceanside Wellness Clinic.3. The Broken West, "Down In The Valley"Addison enters the Wellness Clinic and finds Naomi.4. The Switches, "Message From Yuz"Naomi tells Addison they have an opening.5. The Rosewood Thieves, "Los Angeles"Couples therapy at the Wellness Center.6. Jem, "California Sun"Naomi and Addison talk, Violet runs into her ex.7. The Adored, "Not Having It"Cooper cries over his stripped vehicle.8. Brandi Carlile, "Turpentine"Addison yells at the elevator to stop talking!Episode 24: "Testing 1-2-3"1. Let's Go Sailing, "This Rope Is Long"This song plays as Meredith gets dressed in a black dress as the interns study. Callie and George study. Meredith talks with Derek at the hospital and Cristina and Burke talk about the wedding.2. Amy Winehouse, "Wake Up Alone"The song plays as George tries to talk to the Chief, and the doctors operate on the three hypothermic mountain climbers.3. Ingrid Michaelson, "Corner Of Your Heart"Alex and Ava argue about her memory and what she really knows. Izzie tries to talk with George about Mercy West but becomes upset.4. The Weather Machines, "Stains Of Saints"This song plays as Addison joins Derek, Mark and Preston at Burke's bachelor party at Joe's bar.5. Paolo Nutini, "Million Faces"A mysterious woman offers to buy Derek a drink in the bar, while Ava (or Rebecca Pope) and Alex reconcile, and Richard finds Adele.Episode 25: "Didn't We Almost Have It All"1. The Jealous Girlfriends, "Roboxula"Callie copies Cristina's vows onto her hand, Izzie and Meredith play toilet paper bride, Richard tells Mark he won't be Chief, and Bailey tells Derek that they found the fourth mountain climber.2. Grace Potter, "Falling Or Flying"Cristina is unable to sleep on the eve of her wedding day, Alex watches Rebecca and her husband talk, Derek talks to Meredith about his night.3. Ray Lamontagne, "Hold You In My Arms"Burke practices his vows in the O.R., Callie says she wants a baby, Alex talks with Rebecca's husband, Jeff, while he holds her baby.4. Coburn, "Closer"Cristina operates in order to clear her head before the ceremony. Izzie helps George tie his tie and declares her feelings for him.5. Ray Lamontagne, "Within You"The interns get their test results. Ava begs Alex to give her a reason to stay, and Meredith and Derek have a disappointing heart to heart.6. The Hereafter, "Eulogy"The song plays as Alex talks to Addison about Ava. George and Bailey talk about his results, and whether they failed one another. Meanwhile, the ladies get ready for the wedding.7. The Mary Onettes, "Explosions"Cristina readies herself and Preston goes to check on her.8. Ingrid Michaelson, "Keep Breathing"The song plays in the final few minutes of the episode as Alex looks for Rebecca, Meredith helps Cristina out of her dress, Callie watches Izzie sitting in the chapel, George meets Lexie Grey, and Richard talks with Derek about the Chief position.P.S.在雨天，在晚上，反反复复听着曾经在剧集里出现的那些歌。

随着歌的旋律模模糊糊记得起那些情节，那些漂浮不定的情绪。

因为这部剧，记得Jem，记得Thirteen Senses，记得Snow Patrol，记得Keane，当然也会记得Meredith、Dereck、Cristina、Izzie这些人物。

他们的哭与笑，快乐与悲伤，都在这些那些歌中。

我怎么都忘不了grey对Derek郑重其事地这样说.直到现在,她的神情,口吻,声音,都不停回荡在我脑海里,像一部自动播放机,反复而强烈.有一点哀怨,多一点坚定,有一点撒娇,多一点坚持.坚持.是的.在这里我想说的是,对于每天第一个迎接我们在真实世界苏醒过来的太阳,对于偶尔一场来去无意地霜降,对于繁华世界瞬息万变的人们,对于纷繁复杂需要面对的现实,对于更多不由自主的选择与被选择...我们能不能也大声地,深情地说一句:choose me! pick me! love me! 呢?总有人在说,生活总是要继续的.诚然如此,但我们能不能不要半推半就的生活?我不想在经历了这样一些挫折之后跟自己说我是不行的,原来我这么糟糕.我不想在经历一些失去之后跟自己说这是注定的,不是你的就不是你的.我不想在每天醒来之后不知道自己今天应该做些什么,不知道哪些是我真的愿意去做的.我不想在每天睡觉之前对于明天是没有任何期待的,甚至都没有一件事能够让我醒来后从床上利索地下来开始行动的....我通通不想...因为我要好好生活.要让温暖的太阳选择我,要让美好的运气选择我,要让胜利的快乐选择我,要让相聚的幸福选择我,要让旅行的喜悦选择我...要让我的每一天都值得.去期待,去到达,去完成.假如我还有80年的生命..80年就是960月..就是29200天...接下来,我要好好爱我的每一个1/29200.我要对你说:I love you and i choose you.Please,pick me and love me.

我第一次看到格蕾的时候还是大学二年级，因为当时新东方英文老师推荐这部片子，谁知一看就爱上了，不可自拔。

开始时候没日没夜得看了两季，后来忙着作业考试毕业就忘了，毕业来到温哥华之后日子过得没滋没味，又想起来看这部剧。

像小孩子攒糖吃那样，故意忍住好奇心，等新出了几集之后找个日子一气儿看完，然后再满怀期待下一次的到来。

昨天看土豆上有23、24的资源了，因为今天要考试，所以拼命忍住不看。

下午考完，从West Broadway一路晃晃悠悠往天车站走，竟然看到有一家专门卖医生和护士服装鞋子的店，玻璃上贴的海报就是亲爱的格雷。

门口的橱窗摆着看起来很舒服的白色鞋子，我也好想要一双迫不及待跑回家，开电脑，上土豆。

一开始是坐在凳子上看的，可是到那个男人开枪后，我就吓得抱着笔记本跑到床上，盖着被子，缩成一团揪心的看。

我还嘲笑自己说，傻瓜，他们是在演戏啊，可是还是攥紧双拳咬紧牙关屏住眼泪，他们陪了我那么久那么久，整整4年的时光啊，感觉就像成了彼此相熟的朋友，一举一动总牵心。

在看24集的时候，外面的天也一点点的黑下来，当结尾曲响起，没有来得及开灯的房间像是熄了灯的电影院，原来自己看电影也有这么曲终人散的感慨。

第七季的预告也没有让我感觉好一些。

躺在床上，以前格蕾里的一幕幕缓缓飘过，我想念那个漂亮的模特想念她明媚的笑，想念那个蓝色小鹿眼睛的男人，想念那个永远握着别人心的男人，想念他在婚礼上说给新娘的话。

但是最最想念的是BAILY打电话给她儿子时望着西雅图的夜色哼的那首歌：“爸爸的东西好，妈妈的东西妙，上帝总会给每个孩子，属于他自己的宝。

”没有人陪伴的日子里，我也常常这么唱给自己听。

格蕾每集的最后总会出现几句比较深刻的话，关于生活的，关于爱情的，关于幸福的，关于生命的，我总会从中得到点什么。

大学一开始看的时候，我最不喜欢的是chistina，觉得她自私又无情，可是看到后来，我最喜欢的角色却变成了她，她外表冷漠嘴上刻薄聪明又处处争先，她就像是住我每日微笑面具下的另一个我，不服输的我，苛求完美的我。

想着想着，就忍不住找出第一季来看，刚看了开头，眼泪就落下来了，故事是从五个朝气蓬勃的实习医生开始的，请注意，朝气蓬勃这个形容词，年轻多美好啊，为了一点感情彼此纠葛不清，为了争一个特殊的病人勾心斗角。

那时候他们面容姣好，周身洋溢着青春的幸福。

等看到第六季，MERE皱眉时候额心的那道纹让我觉得刺痛，我最近总盯着镜子看，发现我也有了这么不深不浅的一道，我以前在家的时候不该埋怨爸爸妈妈总是皱眉弄得眉心的皱纹怎么揉都揉不开。

现在我知道，这就是时间，摧枯拉朽的力量，岁月是一把太锋利的手术刀了，没有谁能在它下全身而退。

想起前几天老师讲她年轻时的故事，说她在30多岁的时候终于又遇见了她高中时期暗恋了很久很久的男生，但她怎么都不敢相信坐在她隔桌那个不修边幅言语粗鄙满脸酒气的男人，是那个高中时候清秀的抱着吉他唱歌的打篮球超好的拉风男孩。

就像是谁来跟大家开了场玩笑。

或许真的上帝在云端，只眨了一眨眼。

等多年以后的我，回国再见到你们的时候，是什么场景，我会不会变成一个一点都不漂亮不可爱也不幽默的平凡妇人了呢？

24岁，本命年，开始觉得明天的我永远不可能比今天更年轻，我开始恐慌了，不知道该怎么办，像我小时候觉得20岁多老啊，老得都可以去死了，可是转眼我都要奔三了。

另外一个让我难过的理由是，小时候我以为20岁的我就很了不起无所不能了。

可是事实上，快25的我，还抱着台破电脑靠在床上打字，一事无成。

如果可以，真的想在老去之前死去，就让生命永远停在最灿烂的时候。

我害怕未来。

世事那么无常，有谁知道明天会怎样。

要是格蕾里的年轻人们知道今天会面临死亡，5年前的今天他们还会不会走进这家医院呢？

可是生命里总有些人注定要相逢，有些又注定要离开。

前天无意逛到老公前女友的博客，发现她贴出了结婚照和婚礼时候的照片，还说年底就会有宝宝了，洋溢着幸福。

我从来没见过她，但是心里一直都感谢她。

都说每一个女人，都是男人的一所学校。

（可惜我不是一所好学校，我只会给人带来伤害。

）她教会了他怎么对女生耐心体贴，教会了他什么叫责任感，所以等我再遇见他的时候，他已经不是那个羞涩的不成熟的小男生，而是变成了一座高大的山，一个坚实的臂膀，一个宁静的港湾。

所以，是她错过了他，他才又遇见了我。

这样看来，似乎又要感谢时光，把他雕琢成优秀的老公，然后送到我的身旁。

可是我又会被岁月千刀万剐成什么样呢可不可以慢点再慢点儿，轻点再轻点儿。。。。。。

我接受剧情必须富有冲突性， 这样才能贴近生活的无常，同时更加威慑观众，但是从第五季开始你就过火了。

Burke因为演员的素质问题离开我不予置否，你妥善的安排了这个离去并合理化了剧情发展。

同样的问题你让george以007的隐喻离开我无话可说，然后是izzie...这些都不是问题，你都办到了，可是从第五季开始，医院的合并，乱七八糟的人物涌入，混乱的思维和剧情，或许这就是你想表达的，我无话可说。

我明白izzie演员的离开或许很急迫，但是你曾经花那么长的时间铺垫了izzie和Derek的感情，那么深刻真挚，你却用以可笑的方式给一切画上了句号，这就是你理解的生活么？

你曾经如此成功的铺设了80多集的剧情却在这个时候慌神了？

没时间还是没精力？

你曾经搞了一集悬疑似的剧情，寻找事故负责人，你是在拍悬疑片还是侦探片么，可问题是，你拍也可以，但是，你毁了它，你把这集毁了，我在里面找不到你一向挖掘的人性和生活点滴，结局就是找出了那个人然后她被开除了，哇塞，好精彩！

你是不是从收视率感觉到了？

第六季有了很多改变，在我几乎开始以为一起又要好转起来的时候，我不知道你是想收拾烂摊子还是如何，你又把一切毁了，你说你舍不得Bailey 舍不得Mer 和 yang ，我理解，他们是这部剧的核心，但是我能不能拜托你至少把剧情发展和情节设置的合理、成熟一些。

第六季的最后两集，你让这个丧妻的男人变成了一个复仇者，没有人性的对外科医生开枪， 你知道问题在哪里么？

1、这么大这么一家著名的医院，在发生持枪时间的时候竟然没有调用监视器观察医院内的情况，然后警察的安排完全没有条理性，美国警察在你眼里、房屋设计师都是傻逼么？

2、在凶手射杀Little grey的时候，警察射杀到了凶手的肩膀 ，他没死我不说话，但是你就这么的跳过的情节，让凶手继续带着伤口游走在了医院里？？？

你觉得观众是傻逼么？

警察这种时候不是应该扑上去或者至少围捕他了么？

你竟然就这么的让他一层楼一层楼的游荡3、凶手是来杀死Derek、 Little grey 和Webber的，在他毫无人性的杀死多个人见到Derek的时候，你倒给他弄出了人性来了，让他犹豫不决的站在了Derek面前，虽然最后还是发出了那么子弹，但是如果按照之前的情绪发展，他应该是一枪枪的射杀了Derek根本不会听他辩解什么，更瞎的是，几分钟之后你让他出现在Derek开刀的OR里面看着yang为Derek做手术，而且他还不开枪！

你到底有没有参考过犯罪心理学？？

有那么多优秀的美剧，刑侦剧，悬疑剧，那么多专业的人员、编剧在哪里，你们究竟讨论过没有？

你把我们观众当成了大白痴，看一场你们上演的荒谬的剧情，为我们曾经喜爱、心疼的决死再一次纠结至死，你这是在愚弄我们的情感。

我真好奇前四季的剧本是谁创造的，你们要串联人员，分配每个人角色和台词，我理解，但是这一次你们弄出了最最荒谬的剧情，好好的生活被你们弄得乱七八糟 ，你们应该感到羞愧！

让我觉得最愚蠢的是我自己，坐在这里为剧情纠结，为这种烂透了的剧情伤神！

在看Grey's Anatomy第二季22集，Yang负责给一位有强迫症的病人听诊，他不停拨弄灯的线控开关。

Yang有点不耐烦说能不能停下来，病人说我也想，但抱歉不能，Yang没办法略带厌恶表情叹了口气转身走开。

病人对旁边的George说她瞧不起我，George否认。

“我知道她是，三年来我见得多了，特别是最像我的人反而最讨厌我。

”接着问Yang：“你是A型血，成绩全优(straight A)，一直是班上最好的学生?”Yang：“是。

”病人：“只是你把你的强迫意识用在了有创造性的方面，我们是同一类人，这就是你无法忍受我的原因。

”Yang是典型的亚裔美国人，融合了东亚人的勤奋刻苦，又有美国人的aggressive。

她是所有实习生中最勤奋的，每天到得最早，病例背得最用心，不放弃任何一个上手术台的机会。

最初时George觉得压力太大说外科医生可能不适合自己，Yang就雄心勃勃地说外科是最hot的，是有男人味的，是海军陆战队，不适合那些娘娘腔。

她从不收拾屋子，把所有时间和精力都投入到工作上。

她把Burke的头巾放在储物柜里，每天激励自己要成为最伟大的外科医生。

总之，她是优秀的，始终追求卓越的那类人。

读书时听过一种说法叫“优秀是一种习惯”，这是一种看似谦逊实际很霸道的说法，我曾经相信而且羡慕，有些人似乎从不认真念书，但考试总是第一，有人气质就是不同，天生的领导者。

后来有机会跟一些牛X人物或并肩作战，或成为对手，或最终超越，才发现这是一种很装事儿的说法，他们都不像外表看起来那么轻松，私底下也在不停地自我激励，也有脆弱消极的一面，毕竟天才非常有限。

追求卓越是一种精神上的强迫行为，习惯于完美的做事方式，不愿让他人失望，不喜欢庸碌无为，严重时身不由己。

典型的强迫症会不自主地把一件事重复若干次，比如片中的病人问OR是否干净：“Is it clean,clean,clean?"Dr. McDreamy心领神会答道："It is clean,clean,clean".可见Sherperd的类型。

The best of this soap opera is voiceover in each episode. It intrigues me to scribble down every sentence of voiceover when watching it. It is food for thought. I like this way to say something about life, love, friend, job, responsibility, loneliness and so on in this series. It make me contemplating what has happened in my life.Attached is what I record, share with "同好":Season1 Episode 1: A hard Day’s nightThe game. They say either a person has what it takes to play, or they don't.There comes a moment when it's more than just a game. And you either take that step forward, or turn around and walk away.E5: “shake your groove thing”Remember when you were a kid and your biggest worry was, like, if you'd get a bike for your birthday, or if you get to eat cookies for breakfast. Being an adult? Totally overrated. I mean, seriously, don't be fooled by all the hot shoes and the great sex and the no parents anywhere telling you to do. Adulthood is responsibility. Responsibility, it really does suck. Really, really sucks. Adults have to be places and do things and earn a living and pay the rent. Kinda makes bikes and cookies look really really good, doesn't it?The scariest part about responsibility: when you screw up and let it slip right through your fingers.Unfortunately, once you get past the age of braces and training bras, responsibility doesn't go away.It can't be avoided. Either someone makes us face it, or we suffer the consequences. And still, adulthood has its perks. E6 “ If tomorrow never comes”A couple hundred years ago, Benjamin Franklin shared with the world the secret of his success. "Never leave that till tomorrow," he said, "which you can do today." This is the man who discovered electricity. You'd think more of us would listen to what he had to say. I don't know why we put things off, but if I had to guess, I'd say it has a lot to do with fear. Fear of failure, fear of pain, fear of rejection. Sometimes, the fear is just of making a decision. Because, what if you're wrong? What if you're making a mistake you can't undo? Whatever it is we're afraid of, one thing holds true. That, by the time the pain of not doing a thing gets worse than the fear of doing it, it can feel like we're carrying around a giant tumor. And you thought I was speaking metaphorically.The early bird catches the worm. A stitch in time saves nine. He who hesitates is lost. We can't pretend we haven't been told. We've all heard the proverbs, heard the philosophers, heard our grandparents warning us about wasted time, heard the damn poets urging us to seize the day. Still, sometime we have to see for ourselves. We have to make our own mistakes. We have to learn our own lessons. We have to sweep today's possibility under tomorrow's rug until we can't anymore, until we finally understand for ourselves what Benjamin Franklin meant. That knowing is better than wondering. That waking is better than sleeping. And that even the biggest failure, even the worst, most intractable mistake beats the hell out of never trying.E07 “ The self destruct button”I mean, if life's so hard already, why do we bring more trouble down on ourselves? What's up with the need to hit the self-destruct button? Maybe we like the pain. Maybe we're wired that way. Because without it, I don't know... ...maybe we just wouldn't feel real. What's that saying? "Why do I keep hitting myself with a hammer?" "Because it feels so good when I stop."E08 “Save me”You know how when you were a kid and you believed in fairy tales? That fantasy of what your life would be. White dress, Prince Charming, Who'd carry you away to a castle on a hill. You'd lie in bed at night and close your eyes, and you had complete and utter faith. Santa Claus, the Tooth Fairy, Prince Charming, they were so close, you could taste them. But eventually, you grow up. One day you open your eyes, and the fairy tale disappears. Most people turn to the things and people they can trust. But the thing is, it's hard to let go of that fairy tale entirely. Cause almost everyone still has that smallest bit of hope, of faith, that one day they'll open their eyes and it will all come true.E09 “who’s zooming who”Secrets can't hide in science. Medicine has a way of exposing the lies. Within the walls of the hospital, the truth is stripped bare. How we keep our secrets outside the hospital...Well, that's a little different. One thing is certain. Whatever it is we're trying to hide, we're never ready for that moment when the truth gets naked. That's the problem with secrets. Like misery, they love company. They pile up and up until they take over everything. Until you don't have room for anything else. Until you're so full of secrets, you feel like you're going to burst.The thing people forget is how good it can feel when you finally set secrets free.Whether good or bad, at least they're out in the open, like it or not. And once your secrets are out in the open, you don't have to hide behind them anymore. The problem with secrets is even when you think you're in control... ...you're not.Season 2E1 “Raindrops keep falling on my head”To be a good surgeon, you have to think like a surgeon. Emotions are messy. Tuck them neatly away and step into a clean, sterile room where the procedure is simple. Cut, suture and close. But sometimes, you're faced with a cut that won't heal. A cut that rips it's stitches wide open.The say practice makes perfect. Theory is, the more you think like a surgeon, the more you become one. The better you get at remaining neutral, clinical. Cut, suture, close. And the harder it becomes to turn it off? to stop thinking like a surgeon. And remember what it means to think like a human being.E2 “Enough is enough (no more tears)”I have an aunt who, whenever she poured anything for you, would say, "Say when." My aunt would say, "Say when," and of course we never did. We don't say "when" because there's something about the possibility of more. More tequila. More love. More anything. More is better.There's something to be said about a glass half full. About knowing when to say when. I think it's a floating line. A barometer of need and desire. It's entirely up to the individual. And depends on what's being poured. Sometimes all we want is a taste. Other times, there's no such thing as enough. The glass is bottomless. And all we want is more.E3 “Make me lose control”Surgeons are control freaks. With a scalpel in your hand, you feel unstoppable. There's no fear, there's no pain. You're 10 feet tall and bullet proof. And then you leave the O.R. And all that perfection. All that beautiful control just falls to crap.No one likes to lose control but as a surgeon there's nothing worse. It's a sign of weakness. Of not being up to the task. And still there are times when it just gets away from you. When the world stops spinning. And you realize that your shiny little scalpel isn't gonna save you. No matter how hard you fight it. You fall. And its scary as hell. Except there's an upside to free falling. It's the chance you give your friends to catch you.E4” deny, deny, deny”The key to surviving a surgical internship is denial. We deny that we're tired, we deny that we're scared, we deny how badly we want to succeed, and most importantly, we deny that we're in denial. We only see what we wanna see and believe what we want to believe. And it works. We lie to ourselves so much that after a while, the lies start to seem like the truth. We deny so much that we can't recognize the truth, right in front of our faces.Sometimes reality has a way of sneaking up and biting us in the ass. And when the damn bursts all you can do is swim. The world of pretend is a cage, not a cocoon. We can only lie to ourselves for so long. We are tired. We are scared. Denying it doesn't change the truth. Sooner or later, we have to put aside our denial ... and face the world head on gun's blazing. Denial. It's not just a river in Egypt. It's a freaking ocean. So how do you keep from drowning in it?E5 “Bring the pain”Pain comes in all forms. The small twinge, a bit of soreness, the random pain. The normal pains we live with every day. Then there's the kind of pain you can't ignore. A level of pain so great that it blocks out everything else. Makes the rest of the world fade away. Until all we can think about is how much we hurt. How we manage our pain is up to us. Pain. We anaesthetize...ride it out, embrace it, ignore it... And for some of us, the best way to manage pain is to just push through it.Pain. You just have to ride it out. Hope it goes away on its own. Hope the wound that caused it heals. There are no solutions. No easy answers. You just breathe deep and wait for it to subside. Most of the time pain can be managed. But sometimes, the pain gets to you when you least expect it. Hit's way below the belt and doesn't let up. Pain. You just have to fight through because the truth is you can't out run it. And life always make more.E6 “Into you like a Train”In general... people can be categorized in one of two ways. Those who love surprises, and those who don't. I don't. I've never met a surgeon that enjoys a surprise, because, as surgeons we like to be in the know. We have to be in the know. Because when we aren't, people die and lawsuits happen. Am I rambling? I think I'm rambling. Ok, so my point actually ... and I do have one. Has nothing to do with surprises or death or lawsuits or even surgeons. My point is this: whoever said what you don't know can't hurt you was a complete and total moron. Because for most people I know, not knowing is the worst feeling in the world.As surgeons, there are so many things we have to know. We have to know we have what it takes. We have to know how to take care of our patients. And how to take care of each other. Eventually we even have to figure out... how to take care of ourselves. As surgeons we have to be in the know. But as human beings, sometimes it's better to stay in the dark. Because in the dark, there maybe fear... ... but there's also hope.E8 “Let it Be”In the 8th grade, my English class had to read Romeo & Juliet. Then for extra credit, Mrs. Snyder made us act out all the parts. Sal Scafarillo was Romeo. As fate would have it, I was Juliet. All the other girls were jealous but I had a slightly different take. I told Mrs. Snyder that Juliet was an idiot. For starters, she falls for the one guy she knows she can't have. Then she blames fate for her own bad decision. Mrs. Snyder explained to me that when fate comes into play, choice sometimes goes out the window. At the ripe old age of 13, I was very clear. That love like life is about making choices. And fate has nothing to do with it. Everyone thinks it's so romantic. Romeo & Juliet. True love. How sad. If Juliet was stupid enough to fall for the enemy, drink a bottle of poison and go to sleep in a mausoleum ... ... she deserved whatever she got.Maybe Romeo & Juliet were fated to be together, but just for a while. And then their time passed. If they could've known that beforehand maybe it would've all been ok. I told Mrs. Snyder that when I was growing up I'd take fate into my own hands. I wouldn't let some guy drag me down. Mrs. Snyder said that I'd be lucky if I ever had that kind of passion with someone. And that if I did, we'd be together forever. Even now I believe for the most part love is about choices. It's about putting down the poison and the dagger and making your own happy ending ... most of the time. And that sometimes despite all your best choices and all your best intentions, fate wins anyway.E09: “Thanks for the memories”Gratitude, appreciation, giving thanks. No matter what words you use, it all means the same thing. Happy. We're supposed to be happy. Grateful for friends, family, happy just to be alive... Whether we like it or not.Maybe we're not supposed to be happy. Maybe gratitude has nothing to do with joy. Maybe being grateful is recognizing what you have for what it is. Appreciate small victories. Admiring the struggle it takes simply to be human. Maybe we're thankful for the familiar things we know. And maybe we're thankful for things we'll never know. At the end of the day, the fact that we have the courage to still be standing ... ... is reason enough to celebrate.E10 “Much too much”When you were a kid, it was Halloween candy. You hid it from your parents and ate it until you got sick. In college it was the heady combo of youth, tequila and well you know... As a surgeon you take as much of the good as you can get... because it doesn't come around nearly as often as it should. Cause good things aren't always what they seem. Too much of anything, even love is not always a good thing.How do you know how much is too much? Too much, too soon. Too much information. Too much fun. Too much love. Too much to ask. And when is it all just too much to bear?E11 “Owner of a lonely heart”Forty years ago, The Beatles asked the world a simple question. They wanted to know where all the lonely people came from. My latest theory is that a great many of the lonely people come from hospitals. More precisely the surgical wings of hospitals. As surgeons we ignore our own needs so we can meet our patients' needs. We ignore our friends and families so we can save other people's friends and families. Which means that at the end of the day all we really have is ourselves. And nothing in this world can make you feel more alone than that.400 years ago another well known English guy had an opinion about being alone. John Donne. He thought we were never alone. Of course it was fancier when he said it. No man is an island entire unto himself. Boil down that island talk and he just meant that all anyone needs is someone to step in. And let us know we're not alone. And who's to say that someone can't have 4 legs. Someone to play with or run around with. Or just hang out.E12 “Grandma got run over by a reindeer”It's an urban myth that suicide rates spike at the holidays. Turns out, they actually go down. Experts think that people are less inclined to off themselves when surrounded by family. Ironically, that same family togetherness is thought to be the reason depression rates actually do spike at the holidays.There's an old proverb that says you can't choose your family. You take what the fates hand you... ...and like them or not, love them or not, understand them or not ... ...you cope. Then there's the school of thought that says the family you're born into is simply a starting point. They feed you and clothe you and take care of you until your ready to go out into the world. ...and find your tribe.E13 “Begin the begin”Fresh starts. Thanks to the calendar, they happen every year. Just set your watch to January. Our reward for surviving the holiday season is a new year. Bringing on the great tradition of New Year's resolutions. Put your past behind you and start over. It's hard to resist the chance at a new beginning. A chance to put the problems of last year to bed.Who gets to determine when the old ends and the new begins? It's not a day on a calendar. Not a birthday, not a new year. It's an event, big or small, something that changes us. Ideally it gives us hope. A new way of living and looking at the world. Letting go of old habits, old memories. What's important is that we never stop believing, we can have a new beginning. But it's also important to remember that amid all the crap are a few things really worth holding on to.E14 “Tell me sweet little lies”As doctors we're trained to skeptical because our patients lie to us all the time. The rule is: every patient is a liar until proven honest. Lying is bad. Or so we're told. Constantly, from birth. Honesty is the best policy. The truth shall set you free. I chop down the cherry tree. Whatever. The fact is, lying is a necessity. We lie to ourselves because the truth, the truth freaking hurts.No matter how hard we try to ignore it or deny it. Eventually the lies fall away. Whether we like it or not. But here's the truth about the truth. It hurts. So we lie.E16: “It’s the end of the world”It's a look patients get in their eyes. There is a scent. The smell of death. Some kind of sixth sense. When the great beyond is headed for you, you feel it coming. What's the one thing you've always dreamed of doing before you die? E17 “As we know it”In hospitals they say you know. You know when you're going to die. Some doctors say it's a look patients get in their eyes. Some say there's a scent. The smell of death. Something. There's just some kind of sixth sense. When the great beyond is heading for you. You feel it coming. Whatever it is. It's creepy. Because if you know. What do you do about? Forget about the fact you're scared out of your mind. If you knew this was your last day on Earth, how would you want to spend it?(现在似乎流行这样的假设，在北美大学，流行”last lecture”)E18 “Yesterday”After careful consideration and many sleepless nights, here's what I've decided. There's no such thing as a grown up. We move on, we move out, we move away from our families and form our own. But the basic insecurities, the basic fears and all those old wounds just grow up with us. And just when we think that life and circumstance have forced us to truly, once and for all become an adult ... We get bigger, we get taller, we get older. But for the most part, we're still a bunch of kids. Running around the playground trying desperately to fit in.We whisper secrets with our best friends in the dark. We look for comfort where we can find it. And we hope. Against all logic. Against all experience. Like children, we never give up hope.E19 “ What have I done to deserve this”Ok so sometimes even the best of us make rash decisions. Bad decisions. Decisions we pretty much know we're gonna regret the moment, the minute, especially the morning after. I mean maybe not regret, regret because at least you know we put ourselves out there. But still ... something inside us decides to do a crazy thing. A thing we know that'll probably turn around and bite us in the ass. Yet, we do it anyway.What I'm saying is ... we reap what we sow. What comes around goes around. It's karma and any way you slice it ... ... karma sucks. Like I was saying ... ... payback's a bitch.One way or another, our karma, will leave us to face ourselves. We can look our karma in the eye or we can wait for it to sneak up on us from behind. One way or another, our karma will always find us. And the truth is as surgeons we have more chances than most to set the balance in our favor. No matter how hard we try, we can't escape our karma. It follows us home. I guess we can't really complain about karma. It's not unfair. It's not unexpected. It just ... evens the score. And even when we're about to do something we know will tempt karma to bite us in the ass ... ... well it goes without saying ... ...we do it anyway.E20 “ Band Aid covers the bullet hole”As doctors patients are always telling us how they would do our jobs. Just stitch me up, slap a band-aid on it and send me home. It's easy to suggest a quick solution when you don't know much about the problem. When you don't understand the underlying cause ... ... or just how deep the wound really is. The first step towards a real cure is to know exactly what the disease is to begin with. But that's not what people want to hear. We're supposed to forget the past that landed us here, ignore the future complications that might arise and go for the quick fix.As doctors, as friends, as human beings we all try to do the best we can. But the world is full of unexpected twists and turns. And just when you've gotten the lay of the land, the ground underneath you, shifts. And knocks you off your feet. If you're lucky, you end up with nothing more than a flesh wound. Something a band-aid will cover. But some wounds are deeper than they first appear and require more than just a quick fix. With some wounds, you have to rip off the band-aid, let them breathe and give them time to heal.E21 “Superstition”My college campus has a magic statue. It's a long-standing tradition for students to rub it's nose for good luck. My freshman roommate really believed in the statue's power... ...and insisted on visiting it to rub it's nose before every exam. Studying might have been a better idea. She flunked out her sophomore year. But the fact is we all have little superstitious things that we do. If it's not believing in magic statues, it's avoiding sidewalk cracks, or always putting out left shoe on first. Knock on wood. Step on a crack, break your mother's back. The last thing we want to do is offend the gods.Superstition lies in the space between what we can control... and what we can't. Find a penny, pick it up, and all day long you'll have good luck. No one wants to pass up a chance for good luck. But does saying it 33 times really help? Is anyone really listening? And if no one's listening, why do we bother doing those strange things at all? We rely on superstitions because we're smart enough to know we don't have all the answers. And that life works in mysterious ways. Don't diss the juju...from wherever it comes.E22 “ The name of the game”A good basketball game can have us all on the edge of our seats. Games are all about the glory, the pain and the play-by-play. And then there are the more solitary games. The games we each play all by ourselves. The social games, the mind games, we use them to pass the time. To make life more interesting. To distract us from what's really going on. There are those of us who love to play games. Any game. And there are those of us who love to play...a little too much.Life is not a spectator sport. Win, lose or draw...the game is in progress...whether we want it to be or not. So go ahead: argue with the refs, change the rules...cheat a little...take a break...and tend to your wounds. But play. Play hard. Play fast. Play loose and free. Play as if there's no tomorrow. Ok, so it's not whether you win or lose...it's how you play the game. Right?E23 “Blues for sister someone”The key to being a successful intern is what we give up. Sleep, friends, a normal life. We sacrifice it all for that one amazing moment. That moment when you can legally call yourself a surgeon. There are days that make the sacrifices seem worthwhile. And then there are the days where everything feels like a sacrifice. And then there are the sacrifices that you can't even figure out why you're making.A wise man once said, "You can have anything in life, if you will sacrifice everything else for it." What he meant is, nothing comes without a price. So before you go into battle, you better decide how much you're willing to lose. Too often, going after what feels good, means letting go of what you know is right. And letting someone in means abandoning the walls you've spent a lifetime building. Of course the toughest sacrifices are the ones we don't see coming. When we don't have time to come up with a strategy, to pick a side or measure the potential loss. When that happens, when the battle chooses us, and not the other way around, that's when the sacrifice can turn out to be more than we can bear.E24 “Damage Case”We all go through life like bulls in a china shop. A chip here, a crack there. Doing damage to ourselves. To other people. The problem is trying to figure out how to control the damage we have done. Or that's been done to us. Sometimes the damage catches us by surprise. Sometimes we think we can fix the damage. And sometimes the damage is something we can't even see.We're all damaged, it seems. Some of us more than others. We carry the damage with us from childhood. Then, as grown-ups, we give as good as we get. Ultimately, we all do damage. And then...we set about the business of fixing...whatever we can.E25 “17 seconds”In life, we are taught that there are seven deadly sins. We all know the big ones: Gluttony, pride, lust. But the sin you don't hear much about is anger. Maybe it's because we think anger's not that dangerous. That we can control it. My point is, maybe we don't give anger enough credit. Maybe it can be a lot more dangerous than we think. After all, when it comes to destructive behavior... ...it did make the top seven.So what makes anger different from the six other deadly sins? It's pretty simple really. You give in to a sin like envy or pride then you only hurt yourself. Try lust or coveting and you'll only hurt yourself, and probably one or two others. But anger...anger is the worst. The mother of all sins. Not only can anger drive you over the edge, when it does, you can take an awful lot of other people with you.E26 “Deterioration of the fight or flight response”Human beings need a lot of things to feel alive. We can't control it.Season 3E01 “Time has come today”In the OR, time loses all meaning. In the midst of sutures and saving lives, the clock ceases to matter. 15 minutes. 15 hours. Inside the OR, the best surgeons make time fly. Outside the OR however, time takes pleasure in kicking our asses. For even the strongest of us, it seems to play tricks. Slowing down, hovering....until it freezes, leaving us stuck in a moment, unable to move in one direction or the other.Time flies Time waits for no man. Time heals all wounds. All any of us wants is more time Time to stand up... time to grow up. Time to let go.E02 “I am a tree”At any moment, the brain has 14 billion neurons firing at a speed of 450 miles per hour. We don't have control over most of them. When we get a chill, goosebumps. When we get excited, adrenaline. The body naturally follows it's impulses, which I think is part of what makes it so hard for us to control ours. Of course, sometimes we have impulses we'd rather not control. That we later wish we had.The body is a slave to its impulses. But the thing that makes us human... Is what we can control. after the storm. After the rush. After the heat of the moment has passed. We can cool off and clean up the messes we've made. We can try to let go of what was. And then again...E03 “Sometimes a fantasy”Surgeons usually fantasize about wild and improbable surgeries. Someone collapses in a restaurant; we splice them open with a butter knife. Replace a valve with a hollowed-out stick of carrot. But every now and then, some other kind of fantasy slips in. Most of our fantasies dissolve when we wake. Banished to the back of our mind. But sometimes we're sure, if we try hard enough, we can live the dream.The fantasy is simple. Pleasure is good. And twice as much pleasure is better. That pain is bad. And no pain is better. But the reality is different. The reality is that pain is there to tell us something. And there's only so much pleasure we can take without getting a stomach ache. And maybe that's OK. Maybe some fantasies are only supposed to live in our dreams.E04 “What I am”At some point during surgical residency, most interns get a sense of who they are as doctors, and the kind of surgeons they're going to become If you ask them they'll tell you. They're going to be General surgeons. Orthopedic surgeons. Neurosurgeons. Distinctions that do more than describe their areas of expertise. They help define who they are. Because Outside the operating room, not only do most surgeons have no clue who they are, they're afraid to find out.E05 “Oh, the guilt”First, do no harm. As doctors we pledge to live by this oath. But harm happens. Then guilt happens, and there's no oath for how to deal with that.First, do no harm. Easier said than done. We can take all the oaths in the world but the fact is... most of us do harm all the time.Sometimes even when we're trying to help, we do more harm than good. And then the guilt rears its ugly head. What you do with that guilt is entirely up to you. We're left with a choice... Either you can let guilt thrown you back into the behavior that got you in trouble in the first place, or learn from the guilt, and do your best to move on.E06 “Let the angels commit”To make it... really make it as a surgeon, it takes major commitment. We have to be willing to pick up that scalpel that may or may not do more damage than good. It's all about being committed. Cause if we're not, we have no business picking up that scalpel in the first place.There are times when even the best of us have trouble with commitment, and we may be surprised at the commitments we're willing to let slip out of our grasp. Commitments are complicated. We may surprise ourselves by the commitments we're willing to make. True commitment, takes effort, and sacrifice. Which is why sometimes, we have to learn the hard way, to choose our commitments very carefully.E07 “Where the boys are”As surgeons we're trained to look for disease. Sometimes, the disease is easily detected. Most of the time, we need to go step by step. First, probing the surface, looking for any sign of trouble. A mole or a lesion, or an unwelcome lump. Most of the time, we can't tell what's wrong with somebody just by looking at them. After all, they can look perfectly fine on the outside, while their insides tell us a whole different story.Not all wounds are superficial. Most wounds run deeper than imagined. You can't see them with the naked eye. And then there are the wounds that take us by surprise. The trick to any wound or disease is to dig down deep and find the real source of the injury. And once you've found it... try like hell to heal that sucker.E08 “staring at the sun”Many people don't know that the human eye has a blind spot in its field of vision. There's a part of the world that we are literally blind to. The problem is, sometimes our blind spots shield us from things that really shouldn't be ignored. Sometimes our blind spots keep our lives bright and shiny.When it comes to our blind spots, maybe our brains aren't compensating. Maybe they're protecting us.E09 “From a whisper to a scream”As doctors, we know everybody's secrets. Their medical histories, sexual histories, confidential information that is as essential to a surgeon as a 10-blade. And every bit as dangerous. We keep secrets. We have to. But not all secrets can be kept.In some ways, betrayal is inevitable. When our bodies betray us, surgery is often the key to recovery. When we betray each other, the path to recovery is less clear. We do whatever it takes to rebuild the trust. And then there are some wounds that are so deep, so profound, that there's no way to repair what was lost. And when that happens, there's nothing left to do but wait.E10 “Don’t stand so close to me”At the end of the day, when it comes down to it, all we really want is to be close to somebody. So this thing where we all keep our distance, and pretend not to care about each other...it's usually a load of bull. So we pick and choose who we want to remain close to. and once we've chosen those people we tend to stick close by. no matter how much we hurt them. The people that are still with you at the end of the day, those are the ones worth keeping.E13 “Great Expectations”No one believes their life will turn out just kind of ok. We all think we're going to be great. And from the day we decide to become surgeons, we are filled with expectation. Expectations of the trails we will blaze, the people we will help, the difference we will make. Great expectations of who we will be, where we will go, and then we get there.We all think we're going to be great. And we feel robbed when our expectations aren't met. But sometimes our expectations sell us short. Sometimes, the expected pales in comparison to the unexpected. You gotta wonder why we cling to our expectations, because the unexpected is just what keeps us steady...standing...still. The expected is just the beginning. The unexpected is what changes our lives.E14 “wishing and hoping”As surgeons we live in a world of worst-case scenarios. We cut ourselves off from hoping for the best because too many times the best doesn't happen. But every now and then something extraordinary occurs ... ...and suddenly best-case scenarios seem possible. And every now and then...something amazing happens. And against our better judgment, we start to have hope.As doctors, we're trained to give our patients just the facts. But what are patients really want to know is. Will the pain ever go away? Will I feel better? Am I cured? What are patients really want to know is... ...is their hope. But inevitably there are times when you find yourself in the worst-case scenario. When the patient's body has betrayed them and all the science we have to offer has failed them. When the worst-case scenario comes true, clinging to hope is all we have left.E15 “ walk on water”Disappearances happen in science, disease can suddenly fade away. Tumors go missing. We open someone up to discover the cancer is gone. It's unexplained, it's rare, bit it happens. We call it misdiagnosis say we never saw it, any explanation but the truth. That life is full of vanishing acts. If something that we didn't know we had disappears, do we miss it?E16 “drowning on dry land”Like I said disappearances happen. Pains go phantom, blood stops running, and people fade away. There's more I have to say. So much more. But I've disappeared.E17 “some kind of miracle”There are medical miracles. Being worshippers at the alters of science we don't like to believe miracles exist, but they do. Things happen...we can't explain them, we can't control them, but they do happen. Miracles do happen in medicine. They happen every day just not always when we need them to happen.At the end of a day like this, a day when so many prayers are answered and so many aren't... We take our miracles where we find them. We reach across the gap and sometimes against all odds, against all logic, we touch.E18 “scars and souvenirs”People have scars in all sorts of unexpected places. Like secret roadmaps of their personal histories... ...diagrams of all their old wounds. Most of our old wounds heal leaving nothing behind but a scar, but some of them don't. Some wounds we carry with us everywhere... ...and though the cuts long gone... ...the pain still lingers.What's worse, new wounds which are so horribly painful... :...or old wounds that should have healed years ago and never did. Maybe our old wounds teach us something... ...they remind us of where we've been and what we've overcome. They teach us lessons about what to avoid in the future. That's what we like to think. But that's not the way it is, is it? Something's we just have to learn over and over and over again.E19 “my favorite mistake”Surgeons always have a plan, where to cut, where to clamp, where to stitch. But even with the best plans, complications can arise, things can arise and suddenly you're caught with your pants down.The thing about plans is...they don't take into account the unexpected. So, when we're thrown a curve ball, whether it's in the OR, or in life. We have to improvise. Of course, some of us are better at it than others. Some of us just have to move on to Plan B and make the best of it. And sometimes... ...what we want... ...is exactly... ...what we need. But sometimes... Sometimes what we need is a new plan.E20 “time after time”A patient's history is as important as their symptoms. It's what helps us decide if heartburn's a heart attack, if a headache's a tumor. Sometimes patients will try to rewrite their own histories. They'll claim they don't smoke or forget to mention certain drugs, which in surgery can be the kiss of death. We can ignore it all we want. But our history, eventually, always comes back to haunt us.Some people believe that without history our lives amount to nothing. At some point we all have to choose. Do we fall back on what we know... Or do we step forward to something new. It's hard not to be haunted by our past. Our history is what shapes us, what guides us. Our history resurfaces time after time after time. So we have to remember sometimes the most important history is the history we're making today.E21 “Desire”As interns we know what we want...to become surgeons. And will do anything to get there... Suffer through killer exams, endure 100-hour weeks, stand for hours on end operating rooms. You name it we'll do it. The tough part though is reconciling this huge thing we want, to be surgeons, with everything else we want.To often, the thing you want most is the one thing you can't have. Desire leaves us heartbroken; it wears us out. Desire can wreck your life. But as tough as wanting something can be...(Addison pauses in front of the hospital)...the people who suffer the most are those who don't know what they want.E22 “The other side of the life”The dream is this: that we'll finally be happy when we reach our goals... ...find the guy, finish our internship. That's the dream; then we get there and if we're human, we immediately start dreaming of something else. Because if this is the dream then we'd like to wake up... ...now please.At some point, maybe we accept that the dream has become a nightmare. We tell ourselves the reality is better. We convince ourselves it's better that we never dream at all. But the strongest of us, the most determined of us, we hold on to the dream. Or we find ourselves faced with a fresh dream we never considered. We awake to find ourselves...Against all odds...Feeling hopeful. And if we're lucky, we realize...In the face of everything, in the face of life...The true dream...Is being able to dream at all.E23 “Testing”A surgeon's education never ends. Every patient, every symptom, every operation...is a test, a chance for us to demonstrate how much we know...and how much more we have to learn.

好的爱情不是让你愿意放弃整个世界，而是让你看到整个世界。

两个破碎的人相遇，从对方身上汲取力量疗愈自己的伤口，互相让对方变得更好所以才走的这么远。

Meredith和Derek注定在一起，从第一幕开始便一直如此。

无论中间有多少的坎坷我从来不曾怀疑过，他们就应该白头到老相守一生。

我希望meredith幸福就像是她希望cristina走过礼堂那样急切，所以当derek呼出最后一口气时，我觉得异常胸闷好像无法呼吸。

大妈破了我的梦，一连着几天我都觉得被背叛，心痛不行。

derek走的那一刻让我开始怀疑我从GA中的所感所悟是不是其实是荒唐的。

我是坚信有soul mate的，但那一刻我觉得即使我找到了另一半那又如何，期望的天长地久也可以戛然而止。

悲观厌世中我看见meredith坚定的脸，她推开一切人自己走了，一年后戴上渡船的帽子又拿起了手术刀。

再多安慰的话都是空虚的，唯有自己品尝痛苦，将痛苦消化成力量才可以走出黑暗。

我忽然就觉得释然了，过去时光中的浪漫并不因为死就会变得不真实，爱情支撑的成长并不因为死而消退，那所有发生在你身上真切的美好确是存在的。

那无与伦比是你的一部分，你不同意谁也拿不走。

爱情的力量如果足够强大，它还是会陪伴一生。

对于GA外的我们，有多少人早就将看GA当成了一种习惯，有多少人已经把GA里面的故事当成了现实，有多少人从中获取了力量让自己变得更好。

这本来就是长美剧，剧外的人事变迁也会让剧情有无限可能，剧情总如我们想象的那样这部剧反而是失败的。

GA虽然狗血的几乎将所有的灾难写进了一家医院，但正因如此大的涵盖面，我们才可以在里面找到一部分的自己，产生共鸣，正因如此GA才能让不同种族不同信仰不同地区的人流泪。

从来就没指望点开一部商业化运作下的剧可以让我有这么多感触，但GA做到了。

那些充满力量的话语我不曾从周围任何人那里听过，有些时候我隐藏痛苦不是因为我不想说而是我不知道谁可以懂，但GA懂。

我怎么可能会舍得放弃这样的一部剧呢？

现在我们怒气冲天，我们骂编剧，我们觉得我们的忠诚被大妈玩弄，我们觉得事情还有挽回的余地。

但试想，难道你的人生真的有如你想象的那样发展吗？

如果Merder在一起是童话，那这份苦难便平添了一份真实。

我也不想再去计较derek憋屈的死是如何不科学，就如Amy所说，死了就是死了，不需要细节。

有人说我可以想象把一个人从身边抽去有多么痛苦，但不经历死亡，他们永远无法懂得如何走出这样的阴影。

我不想抱怨生活的残忍，因为我无能为力。

但我相信所有一切的发生都是有意义。

生活会给你糖也会给你毒药，给多给少并不是公平的，重要的不是糖有多甜蜜药有多苦涩，而是你怎么将他们调制成你人生的味道。

derek给不了mere到110岁的陪伴，但在最完美的时候退场给mere了一个永不泯灭的完美过去。

derek的离去不是webber离开ellis的自愿，mere不会坐上旋转木马重复母亲命运的轮回。

天空不留飞鸟的痕迹，但它已经飞过。

derek已经离去，但他的痕迹会留在mere心底。

我相信mere会再次找到让她自己幸福的方式。

我还会在绝望的时候回看GA找到支撑下去的力量。

GA在，我便追。

无与伦比不因死而虚妄，陪伴一生不因死而终结。

我还在等我的mcdreamy。

It's okay.I'll be fine.I'll go ahead.I'm not gonna waste derek's life to be a quitter.

不熟悉的医疗题材，害怕有血腥的画面，开膛破肚。

昨晚看了第一季第三、四集，慢慢有了感觉。

那个韩裔演员扮演的角色总给我最多感触，在模特医生拼命争取已脑死亡病人生命的最后二十七分钟时，她却希望尽快宣布其死亡，好去处理更多的病人。

为了争取乳腺切除手术，她去做琐碎的事情，最后发现主治医生的目的只是希望病人能死在医院，因为病人是曾在医院工作18年的清理护士。

有一段她和病人有意思的对话，病人问，回家之后有谁等着你？

家人？

朋友？

爱人？

还是孩子？

她都不是，不知所谓了一下，然后吐出一个“床”字，更有意思的是，病人说，床，呵呵，这里多的是啊。。。

后来就在病人心跳停止的时候，其他人都放弃挽救，她却执着地想要做点什么，大概从她身上看到了和自己的某些相似，不希望她就这样的结局吧。

在让家属签字遗体捐赠时，她一份一份地让人签字，愿意捐献你丈夫的心脏、肝、肺么？

愿意捐献你丈夫的角膜么？

……这可以帮助盲人恢复视力；愿意捐献你丈夫的皮肤么？

……这可以帮助皮肤烧伤的人……妻子的疑问让她无言以对，半晌没说话，一声不响地出去了。

“纳粹”告诉她：“他”不是一具尸体，不是可以捐赠的各种器官的集合体，不是没有姓名的人，他叫XXX，是别人的丈夫，孩子的父亲，他是一个人！

在做解剖和转移器官的手术时，看着肺、肝脏等一一被取出，看着那些脱离了躯体的器官单独取出来，又被放入冰冷的单独的盒子转移到其他人体内活过来，觉得人体真是神奇，医学也是很强大啊。

当最后心脏被取出时，仪器上的指数由几十变到了零，发出持久的“哔”声，突然意识到自己的心在跳，默默地，鼓动者，支撑着我的生命，我却在浪费生命，竟也无能为力。

还有她和四人组中惟一的男生的一段对话编剧也写得超符合她的性格，男医生被病人和同事误以为是同性恋，跟她说谁谁谁以为他是什么什么时，她面无表情：那你是吗？

他矢口否认，她居然说：really？

笑死偶鸟。

另外，在和学妹聊天，有些感触，人笨笨的时候，愿意相信美好的时候，会不会更幸福些。

在经历过失望后，对什么都不再相信，坚持独自、积极地面对人生，这事靠谱么？

我喜欢《实习医生格蕾》，非常，非常喜欢看过这么多美剧，从来没有一部像GA这样让我可以说有点“迷”，有点沉溺我会花一下午的时间找剧中的配乐的mp3资源我会搜片头片尾英文台词并且保存下来我会半信半疑的将邮箱留在GA吧里声称可以给全英文剧本的帖子里只因为，它是GA——关于《Grey Anatomy》我喜欢这部片子里的很多人。

Meridith，她经历了很多，也许太多，从小的家庭破裂令她对家庭从来就缺乏安全感，害怕被放弃。

拥有一个本身太过优秀至于对她处处苛责即便得了阿尔兹海默氏病也不忘对她吼Why you’re so ordinary的妈妈；One night stand之后发现那个人居然是自己的BOSS也许不算糟糕，更郁闷的是真的爱上他之后却发现那是个有妇之夫；又不得不掺和到亲生父亲组建的另一个家庭中去……她对Yang说，we need you to be happy，她需要有好朋友的幸福样板来说服自己，生活并没有那么糟糕，幸福是可以期待的。

可以想象，这是一个对未来多么缺乏信心的人，以至于一度任由放弃自己的生命，放弃存活。

我没有理由苛责她在感情上的踟蹰退缩，只是真的很希望，她有一天，能够过得不这么混乱，不这么错综复杂，只要一点点，简单的幸福就好。

没错，life is tough, 所以，请一定要keep moving on，一定。

Derek，绰号Mc dreamy，大概真的是很多女孩心目中的Mc dreamy吧。

英俊、迷人带点忧郁气质，主治医生，Chief的接班人。

很难说这是一个怎样的男人，才会拥有那样一双神情疲惫却又摄人心魂的眼睛。

他渴望安定，却没有安全感，对感情太容易投入又太过理智，曾经的背叛让他太害怕伤害，太害怕没有结局，只好一次一次陷入被卡在中间地带的尴尬境地。

有时候看着看着，会很怜惜这个男人，他始终不是阳光乐观的那一群，骨子里透着悲观、压抑甚至绝望。

一直期盼他和Meridith能有happy ending，有一天却终于觉得也许他们俩终究不会有happy ending，也许我们该盼望他能找到那个可以一起建筑家庭理想可以安定下来一起变老的perfect woman，就算不是最爱。

也挺喜欢Derek的前妻Addison，她是一个很值得敬重的女人。

漂亮，气质高雅，有点自负，事业有成，也许感情不尽如人意。

她其实揣着一个再普通不过的梦想，那就是，找一个可以安定下来的人，一起生一个小孩，然后，be happy ever after，只是，这样的愿望对于人类而言，有时候居然显得那么奢侈。

在GA里面，到处都是离合，破裂，不忠，背叛。

她自己，不也曾经背叛Derek？

太难了，最后她决定放弃找这么一个人，独自想要一个小孩好好养的时候，却发现她没有生小孩的能力了，是讽刺，还是惩罚呢？

可以说Izzie，是GA里头我最喜欢的一个角色了。

很欣赏这个漂亮，率真的女人，喜欢她极其坚定的说，I will not change。

她坚信，无论是作为一个医生还是作为一个人，她都不会改变，永远会遵循自己的内心。

让个人情感卷进医生的角色又怎么样？

爱上自己的病人甚至置职业生涯于不顾又怎么样呢？

人生太短暂，疯狂爱一场，也值了不是？

拼命为Denny争取到那颗心脏，结果却猝不及防。

她终究没有等来预想中的春天，没有等来happy ending。

我们可以知道的是，She did nothing wrong，she just did what she wanted；And for that，，she is much more braver than many of us。

没错，她很勇敢。

即便对待无望的爱情，她很勇敢，也很坚持。

（因为喜欢这个角色进而关注凯瑟琳•海格尔，很喜欢她那招牌式的笑容。

在这届奥斯卡颁奖礼上，梦露式打扮的她在说颁奖词的时候居然会颤抖，实在是很可爱。

最近看了她主演的《新娘靠边闪》，还不错，推荐哦★★★）不能不说Burke和Yang这一对，GA里算是唯一一对忠贞的情侣。

Burke成熟稳重，才华横溢，是那种值得信任值得托付的男人。

而Christina，是一个事事争先恐后非常有野心的女人。

这一对儿的发展多少给了我们很多希望，原本这一对非典型的结合是相当值得津津乐道的，可是Yang，在最后的关头，她没能走过红地毯，没能跨过那扇门，没能说出I do的宣誓。

于是，在最后的最后，Burke离开了，Christina疯了一样摘掉脖子上的Burke的家传饰品，疯一样的扯去婚纱。

我真的无法理解，到底是怎么了？

人和人之间，到底是怎么了。

即便是两个真心相爱的人，似乎也逃脱不掉，永远永远无法到达，那所谓的happy ending。

（附：Burke的那段marriage vow: Cristina, I do promise, to hold you and cherish you. And I promise, to be there in sickness and in health. I could say, till death do us apart, but I won’t. Those vows are for optimistic couples, the vows full of hope, but I do not stand here on my wedding day optimistic or full of hope. I am not optimistic, I am not hopeful, I am sure, I’m steady. And I know, I’m a heart man, take them apart, put them back together, I hold them in my hands, I am a heart man, so this, I am sure, you are my partner, my lover, my very best friend. My heart, my heart beat for you. And on this day, the day of our wedding, I promise you this, I promise you to lay my heart in the palm of your hands, I promise you, me. ）GA的新剧集将在4月下旬推出。

我一边等待，一边回顾。

看着看着，我只是不明白，这里的人们，这些或者将要成为最优秀的外科医生的人们，为什么对待生活，对待感情，对待所爱的人，对待所在乎的事，却那么绝望呢。

为什么happy ending就像童话一样遥不可及呢。

是人类太绝望，还是因为这个世界本身太让我们失望呢。

身体的伤害，也许手术可以使它痊愈，即便留下疤痕，也会慢慢淡去。

可是，人心的伤口，永远都无法痊愈，就像落下了病根，时不时会复发，有时候痛苦来得猝不及防，有时候甚至脆弱得不堪一击。

人们在这个世界上努力、拼搏、奋斗，职位、功名、利禄，也许很快就得到了，可是人们的内心，却仍旧孤独、脆弱、无力。

每个人都渴望保护自己，害怕背叛和伤害，缺乏信任，也依旧渴望幸福，期待坚固的关系，渴望真心的情感，却依旧在幸福面前迟疑，踟蹰，徘徊，直至失去，直至发现再也无法回头。

我们是否依然应该相信，有一个叫做happy ending的东西呢？

　　　《Grey's Anatomy》 　　关系 　　第一季开头，凌乱的现场，naked girlGrey在闹钟声中一把抓起地上睡得正酣的男人裹着的被单，并将一个枕头摔到了他的臀部上。

　　男人还想说什么，Grey请他马上离开，因为自己要上班了，而她还叫不出来他的名字。

　　他们分别前说的最后一句话是：“很高兴认识你。

” 　　COOL！

　　男女平等，莫过如此。

　　 　　enemy or competition 　　Dr. Burke得知 Dr. Shepherd是上司richard挖来，一向认为外科主任的位子在自己囊中的他，开始有了危机感。

他去问下属，问intern，自己像不像外科主任？

自己有什么缺点？

　　Dr. Shepherd大方邀约Dr. Burke下班一起去喝一杯。

他的轻松微笑，理由是：要了解你的朋友，也要了解你的敌人。

Dr. Burke则回答：you are not an enemy,you are just competition. 　　而在intern中间，竞争更无处不在，一个号召，都会有如林的手臂举起。

　　但他们的competition如此透明。

　　没有权谋、厚黑、算计，这样的competition，很好。

　　 　　3R 　　God，我喜欢Grey的内心独白。

喜欢她的3R理论。

　　她说，人生有3R:relatives,romance,roomates. 　　 　　love story 　　最近看连岳，里面充满着这个时代混乱的感情，just like天涯上那一段段故事。

老妈不知道我在看什么，里面的内容，她会吓坏的吧。

到处是婚外情、一夜情、无性爱、无爱性、劈腿、三三，如果不是可爱的连岳，谁还会认为读这样的东西是一件美好的事情呢？

　　《ugly betty》里，时尚界内，更上一层楼，是同性恋、变性人的故事了，而Danile的老妈也在为走了一个三，又来了一个三而烦恼。

　　环球同此凉热啊。

　　Frankie的最爱就是GA，多么明晰的、蓝白色的医学世界，还有Shepherd和Grey，Burke和Yang.看上去那样美好。

　　 　　情感问题 　　美好永远都只是一瞬间的事情。

　　Grey发现Shepherd原来是有老婆的。

而真在选择面前，男人更狠。

看上去冷面冷口冷心的Yang，我们以为她更冷静。

但主任的位子，让Burke做出更冷的决定。

　　两个受伤的女人相拥而取得一点点人间的温暖。

就像《Sex and the City》里的女人们。

　　越来越觉得，感情，真是一样复杂的东西。

Emotion is a mess.forever. 　　 　　good-looking man 　　和表弟论争，哪个医生帅？

我觉得Burke太帅了，就像YANG的妈妈说的，真是good-lookingman，而且黑人中，好像很少有这样帅的男人。

戴上很另类的花头巾，真是太酷了。

Shepherd当然也不错，我记起来他拍过电影《sweet home alabama》。

不过还是觉得Burke越看越帅啊。

Anyway，我和Frankie都觉得Yang不好看，但看习惯了还是有一些风情。

再说美国人眼中的亚洲美女都是此种类型，像Lucy liu式的。

　　Yang失去了一个男友、一个baby，一个输卵管，情绪终于崩溃大哭。

Burke路过，拥住了她。

很温暖。

　　不是每个故事都有美好结局。

但我们希望如此，虽然有时只是希望。

　　 　　老美女 　　Meredith当然是剧中的一号女主角，却有人不喜欢她。

　　老。

声音不好听。

　　有人说。

　　我喜欢Meredith，包括喜欢她脸上那痛苦的皱纹，喜欢她有点哑哑的却特别真实的嗓音，像哑光一样不亮眼，却有质感，令人心折。

Izzie当然也很可爱，却缺少Meredith那一种优雅的风度。

　　大多中国男人的审美观，就是青春可人，岁月的智慧，他们不懂得欣赏。

　　Pick me，choose me，and love me. 　　她对derek说。

我真是爱死这句话，但又是喜欢又是心疼。

她真是一个勇敢坚强可爱的女孩。

只是很多男人，怕接受不了这样主动又独立的思想吧。

　　 　　you deserve better. 　　you deserve better. 　　在剧中，男女分手时，我们常常可以听到这句话。

不论是否出自真心，或是礼貌，这句话，总是代表着一种理性的方式吧。

而在我们平日所看到的，分手大都很难看，仓皇、退避、谎言、拖欠、借口。

　　剧中分分合合很多，也许是为了剧情需要，但是，他们都很率直，能说出自己要说的，TO tell a lie，在美国的文化中，或许是被看作一种很大的过错，甚至人品格、人性的污点，而且他们，也总是有勇气去面对与改正。

中国人，何时有这种勇气？

　　 　　sense and sensibility 　　人给人生和社会规定了许许多多的规则。

　　《GA》里，Denny说，人生苦短，不可能都按规则来行事。

　　还有一句常说的话：We can make mistakes,everyone can make mistakes.所谓错误，也不过是在理智和感情的斗争中，人往往有时顺从了感情而非社会规则，或说，理性。

更可怕的是，人往往不知道自己内心到底在想什么？

往往，心和身体，就会背判大脑。

　　理智与情感，哪一个会占上风？

　　而意外，总是在计划时出现。

　　人生因为充满意外，因为不规则，才成为人生。

　　 　　亲人 　　Meredith，对她好的，不是她的亲爸，而是Richard，她的stepmother，对她的关心也似亲妈。

　　她的亲爸，在知道老婆抢救无效时，给了她一个耳光。

他真是一个懦弱无用的爹。

在Mer溺水抢救时，他不知道在哪里，是Richard抢救她，不抛弃，不放弃。

他明知老婆的死与她无关，为了泄愤，给了她一个耳光。

而他谈到一张老照片，津津乐道地说，这是他的另外一个女儿。

而Mer却说，那是我。

　　他的，他从小就离开的女儿。

　　我最深爱的人伤我却是最深。

　　不知为什么，我想到了郑欣宜。

　　　It takes two.　　A男和B女broke up，在我们这里简直是一石激起千层浪。

　　有人站在A一边，有人站在B一边。

　　其实，Baily说了，It takes two.　　最近可能看多了连岳和GA，我以为，无论开始人的初衷有多么美好，世界在变化，人在变化。

而快乐是不多的。

　　我希望A能快乐，我希望B能成长。

因为，　　It's time to stand up,time to grow up.　　 　　 　　　　last episode 　　看到S4，舍不得看完，希望故事继续。

看到S4，last episode，这一集，非常感动。

　　越来越理解Mere，她是一个单亲家庭的孩子，如同她的名字，grey,这名字真是好。

dark,twisted,hesitate.她与derek的感情这样纠结，是因为她被伤害，她日常的生活少有温暖的底色,所以她犹疑，惶惑，近情情怯。

　　但她在努力，在成长。

她敢于直面自己的问题，就是进了一步，她要从她母亲那里看到自己的缺陷，然后弥补，长大。

就这一点，她就是一个talent,gifted,extraordinary的人。

　　GA，讲的就是这样一群有着各自缺点的，不完美的人，可是他们都在学习成长、学习修正自己的人性弱点，正如alex眼底滑落的那一滴泪一样，令人感动。

　　这才是真正的人，这才是真正的人生，这就是GA的意义。